Metaphorical

BIG FAMILY OF MINE

2012-01-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

I knew that today would be a good day without doubt. it was indeed.

Nothing beats than staying together with this big family of mine. It felt like a mini gathering with the photo reviews. ohwell. we looked back at all the secondary school life photos. awesomeness. few times whereby Ms Tay so agitated with us: "HOW CAN U ALL TAKE PICTURES DURING BIO LESSONS?!" "TAKE DURING SSRP SOMEMORE!!" Funny. and cool. with V replying:"WE STILL MANAGED TO SCRAPE THROUGH" hahahaha. agreed much.

but anyway wanna thank ms tay for inviting us over and her mum who cooked truckloads for us. hahahaha. we also did well for finishing her snacks. it seemed like so much memories in the past. secondary school days still da best. all our nonsense contained. sealed in my memory box (:

ohya. first time stayed so long at ms tay's house. cool~ then we went to shida's house. i feel very bad cause i left earlier w H and J and then all guys started to leave. errr... i needa get home to study.. nvm nvm.

and ytd i reached home at 1am+ SO TIRED.

okay. its just a short post. am gonna continue studying!!

阿京言：拼了！！！:D

PS: still happy with the new found friend^^

难得可贵

2012-01-27T18:40:00.003+08:00

庆幸身上的伤不再清晰

"有一些东西错过了、就一辈子错过了、人是会变的、守住一个不变的承诺、却守不住一颗善变的心、有时候、执着是一种负担、放弃是一种解脱、人没有完美、幸福没有一百分、知道自己没有能力一次拥有那么多、又何苦要求那么多。"

Today's meet up was thumbs up. It felt like the only happy thing happened for the past going 3weeks. really. i've never laughed so much for so long. with the random C and Y. weird combination for sure. but it was great.

so how does it feel like to have earned another friend of another status? Its pretty cool much. cause i've nv thought that far. that probably after graduation. It probably just end there. Well. cant blame me for such thinking. cause you ownself also admit u bo ximmmm. but HAHA. bet is u say say only huhhhh.. cause u secretly still wan me as friend(upgrade liao)^^

if anyone of you had realised, i've removed the tagboard and started naming peopo with capital letters. well. the tagboard looks super dead + pointless. Not mentioning peopo's name any longer is just.. pure fun? lol

So. its really simply hilarious to see Y being kept in the dark of not knowing whats going on while me and C laughed like no tomorrow and i have to contain my laughter. almost kena internal injury pleaseeeee! lol.

and i was really happy . like really happy de happy de happy for the fact that C told me stuffs. and happy that it happened. to the extent that i keep smiling to myself whenever i thought of it. IKR. LIKE A FOOL -.-

but yeapp.. and the last text about 'lucky to have me as friend' i kinda think its the opposite. because i was so glad to have known you. the countless advices and laughters and suan-ings. seriously no one does it better than you. the extent of ur level is PROFFESSIONAL. so, whatever it is. you can always look for me. (altho our communication abit lacking. haha)

As usual, i wont be the one who walk away...

for the past three weeeks. not a happy cny at all with all the helping for preparation. but i guess it kinda worked when i tell myself it'll be over soon + the spamming and venting on twitter does help. but during cny, at least i get to slack for a while.. but whatever. assignments are all piling up and lecturer just added POA test on next fri which means next week 3tests, THANKS AH. advance notice indeed.

The cny is so not cny anymore too as the liveliness decreases each year and the yearly meetings at some point of time do seem a bit meaningless. just a routine. anyway, just saying.

So, this weekend is pretty much lined up and currently waiting for aunt's call to go down for dinner at restaurant. i kind of rather go out with H but no choice. sua la. and i gotta do my work by this weekend, all those e-learning assignments. irritating much!

BYEEEEEEEE.

let time tick away for once

2012-01-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

liking this little space at the cafe.

yepp. its l'etoile cafe at owen road..it has this relaxing feel that made me wanna visit there again. i feel like visiting all the other cafes in singapore. shall do it when i got time.

today was bad day for me. feel so unproductive. 3h+ on 4 tutorials. im mad. and jam. walked 3 bus stops before to board 74 with D. kind of crazy. but i steady one. and as usual we chatted again uh. haha.

just feel that CNY is not so CNY anymore. having test. and tmr is my IJ challenge and it has to take the whole day.

no. i just felt that im being robbed of of my time.time and again, i need to tell myself that i'll be fine but, its kind of not. and all i can do was worrying about my tests with no signs of im able to manage my time better except waiting for CNY to end

WHATS THE POINT WHEN ALL THE TESTS ARE DURING CNY PERIOD. HOW THE HELL DO I WAIT FOR IT TO END WHEN IM SUPPOSE TO HELP OUT IN SO MANY THINGS?!

sometimes i really wonder whats the purpose of me here.

i really disliked myself at some point of time. when i see my aunt slogging out her guts. i do feel useless for not being able to help. and i will wonder for her. why is she doing so much. i just cant stand her doing so much things all by herself and yet. what i can do is limited.

At least, the only thing im proud of is, i went to starbucks to study. it was kinda nice, the time alone, doing something i want, altho the time is really short.

can you tell me that i'll be alright?

oh. i kinda didnt expect i'll tell u so much?

FUCK MY LIFE!!!

Controversy

2012-01-16T00:54:00.004+08:00

I didnt want to say more anymore.. for those who know me. im just that straightforward. but to be honest, thinking under peopo's shoes really depends on which side you are on. prolly cause it didnt happen to you and thats why u can say it out so boldy and demandingly. if it happens to you. how would u react?

and its really pointless talking about it now since its alrd over like few days. what i wanted to say what. u guys always have a place in my heart no matter how. its like soft spot for u all.

after all, we went through so much tgt? and there's so much more to conquer tgt in future.

and sorry to those peopo whom i PMS-ed or scold or whatever with. it was at-the-point-of-time thing. you know righttt?(:

and so the next night, celebration for yao's birthday, it was weirdddd. cause yao dont wan any birthday cake nor sing song session. she say just eat. and guess where we went? KFC!! (walao. there goes the quit fast food plan-.-) so.. it was a really simple yet heartwarming dinner. cause we did the usual talk cock session. laughing all the way. crapping all the way. and well. this time round, adding abit of personal life. (okay admit got gossip abit) personal lives and personal views prolly we dont share it last time... well. we are all growing up now ma.. and guess what?! MY LAOGONG IS STILL AS CUTE AS EVERRR!!^^V

Finally the last friday night's event which , urm, made me reached home at nearing 1am. ahaha. yar. no joke. went over to crash Kpk and Y's dorm. kinda funnnnn. i mean i can totally smell the total freedom which make me so freaking envious.

and we ate steamboat.. talking abt diet huh.. -.- and W was like: winny, you've grown fatter!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. totally agitate dao T_T depressed* draws circle*

Guess the best part is the sharing session and amazement? its like. US gathered together like this. talking about things and stuffs, esp rs stuffs. so C-O-O-L. really. i kinda nv imagine that to happen before. which makes me think next time can crash HPC's JC kia's dorm next time since they shld be going uni next ma..

and as expected. i kena bullied. wait no. i wasnt expecting it. but yea. i tio again. forever one lehhh. GUYS!! WHEN CAN U ALL TREAT ME DECENTLY THAT IM NOT TO BE BULLIED/EASY TO BE BULLIED?! KIAMPAAA DE. zzz

but really really really funnnn and memorable. thanks guys for inviting me over which i think its someone's idea. or else why would u all invite me or sth.. -.-

and its really really nice to see you guys after so long. jin jia!! and KPK's Buoeye and nonsense korean talks otw home was simply. entertaining. HAHA.

but yea. i had mad fun and eye opener + exposure + so long nv see u all.. 3birds with one arrow^^V

Sat was spent working + trng.. the usual routine. which tired die me cause i woke up the next morning pei-ing aunt to the market and she was like didnt know i was working and luckily i wasnt late!

Today was ultimate.. wakinng up early to start off with the day going to market + helping with the pineapple tarts. usual annual routine. and then jingevolution meeting whereby things were said and done and passed down.. like sad.. i dont wan the comms to dissolve uh.. so meeting lasted 3h and block suddenly dashed to the entrance and then brought out a cake for karen!

thats how cute and sweet these peopo are, y'know. and they commented im always busy which i really am was. but they are just nice peopo cause they dont give me pressure nor anything and sometimes showing me concern... dinner with them during feb soon and shall enjoy myself then!(:

and then home-d otw saw H and mum and chatted a while. haha.. and was so focus on helping aunt til 1130pm before time is finally returned to me. Thank god chiong-ed my assignments and i gotta crash soon cause tmr's lesson at 9am but luckily. its e-learning week so early dismissal! ohyea^^

Better best

2012-01-08T00:15:00.003+08:00

Another night :/

The freshly dug wounds unveiled. Its gonna take some time before it could close up again. Really, sometimes i do doubt my existence. The purpose of my life. The blow came again and again. Be it prepared or not.

The freedom that i yearn for. its gonna take ages to achieve and im still working hard towards that. But i was merely hoping life for a slight better change. That little change is all i ever ask of.

10years down the road, im gonna smile and tell myself that i've grown to be a even more better person. I'll smile through those bad times with the definite you. Its for myself.

But for now, sorry heart, for all the pain and sorrows. They wil need time to heal.

The short meeting was thankful. I was all losing hope. Cause, i dont want to disturb anyone's life. And it gets tired to try too hard to do so. To be honest, the meet-ups are draining me. Not that i dislike. But it consumes me and i wanna put in that little more effort in my academics. At least an account to myself. Even if failed, its a willing trial and with no regrets. As for now i'll hold on a little more til the end of my breath.

Sometimes, just sometimes. When the whining to another being starts. Its not about anyone being able to provide me with the best solution nor anything. Its just to vent. Hearing my everythings and i'll be okay again. I just find that im losing the rights soon. Not that i didnt wan to contact you anymore. Its i dont wanna disturb you. And that'll probavly be when drifting starts all over again. But no, i'll hold on. As promised.

Can i have someone to hug me and tell me things will be better?

in time with you

2012-01-06T01:19:00.002+08:00

i know i said i wont want to talk much abt this drama, but i cant help it!

talked to many peopo about the drama and cant believe that each girl had wanted their own li da ren to appear.. oh well.. not that easy ba?

as in why i said li da ren's love is big. is cause, he used his way to love cheng you qing, by being her side for 15 years and taking care of her in many ways. He told himself not to fall in love with her but deep inside he had always been in love with her and the not good part was, he had to go through few failed relationship then he realised how much he loved her.

but i still cant believe the real li da ren exist until C told me her story. it made me kinda envious because she's really really really lucky, isnt she?

just came back from Hengling's chalet. and talked and catched up with the sec peeps. ASC was almost complete except Yao choose to nua at home ): and i totally can minggle with 4/1 peeps as tho they are my own class peopo.. it just feels weird how different sec sch friend feels in me compared to poly friends. not that they are not good, its just different.

dang. she cried o.o

first time seeing her cried like that. and oh yes. its long story.

kinda tired, gotta crash. nites.

continue on like this and i'll hate myself even more. arsehole

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!

2012-01-03T23:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2012!!

Guess how did i spent my first day? Well, countdown with them!:D

some more after work chiong-ed down. then aft countdown, reached home at 7Am+ slept for abt 2h+ and went to work.. cause double payyyy. and i slept as much as i could, i really did! but up til now, cant sleep back .. chuiii -.-

oh the venue was at barrage, it was my first and weird countdown cause.. we kind of missed the 5 4 3 2 1.. then the fireworks just exploded-.-

well, i missed watching the fireworks whereby it shoot up right in front of me.. on the patch of skies across my face. way too awesome..

and we went to eat geylang beancurd at 4am+ on JB's carrr.. a friend tat drives + got car is awesomeeee. oh Jo and Jeff dropped by too

so whats new year without new year resolution?

#1 be a better person by being less forgetful, less blur, less messy, more tolerant

#2 achieved the intended GPA

#3 more money

#4 Go taiwannnn!!

#5 to fall in love (copy from BOA, but of course with the right guy and prepared to wait!)

so.. the first 2 resolutions are most impt de.. last 3.. see how. LOL.

in another words. i spent the first day sleeping + working. hehe

and first day of school today not so.. nice.. cause got back test results tat sucked as much but telling myself that its not time to give up yet because there's still chance to pull back and to constantly remind myself to work even harder and putting in more effort. and WHATEVER to 2011's results. now's 2012!:D

Last drama of 2011

in time with you, 我不可能会爱你

名字听起来真的不怎样哪知道看了却那么实际

虽然不曾发生在自己身上但不得不承认李大仁的爱

真的真的真的很伟大

以前看的偶像剧那么不切实

所以绝对值得一看的13集！

不想说明只想你们自己看自己感受自己琢磨

不一样的爱不一样的传递

深深被吸引傻傻的等着我的李大仁

其实回头想起不再那么讨厌是一个经历

不管愉不愉快都发生了

其实只是发现了我们都没爱过

我笑了

我的确需要多一点时间来恢复

等着我东山再起吧！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

so celebrated shihui's birthday at mendi's house with steamboat. beloved HPC and happy birthday girl!(belated)

looking back at all the memories of 2011 in mendi's blog.. didnt realised we actually experienced so much tgt. it all happens just within a blink of an eye. but nevertheless, it was a pretty good year and i've grown as well(mentally duh)

i dont wanna say out too much but just wanna thank those who's been there for me throughout. im sure you know who you are. the one who always crush me, compressed on me one and listen to me and let me vent and the one who everytime complained to me a lot one. and of course the usual clique of them . thank those who's not there for me anymore cause they taught me to see things at clearer perspective. and those new friends made this year. definitely awesome and great with you guys enriching my poly life (or else i sure anti social + emo die)

and most happy of all is. went overseas with friends!(didnt know i could do that!!) and went back bali aloneeeeee. hehe. hooray to road to independent! ^^V

lastly, mandopop, eng pop and kpop and diary who accompanied me throughout <3

2012 better be good! nites all(:

bla bla bla

2011-12-25T23:41:00.004+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS FOLKS!

just in case if you guys are wondering what i've been up to these few days, some pics to see see

My Girlfriend is A Gumiho(Nine-tailed Fox)

The drama i've finished finally , dragged on since after o's. the guy on top is named no min woo, like quite shuaiz? are all no min woos so shuaiz? there's another one from Boyfriend. but anyw he not very shuaiz of u look long enough. seunggi and shin min ah looks cute tgt.. esp when seunggi smilinggg

and i cried alot for this dramaaa. srsly. maybe because its such a not possible happening kind of love so thats why its pretty cool. its hard for both of them to be together mind you. and when seunggi finally confesses he liked her. oh manz. i broke into a smile. srsly very sweet

altho the ending is.. so so lor. but its really niceeee :D

and, most important of all. it gave me the strength to go on, the strength to believe in existance of love.the unconditional kind of love whereby its the right one for me. whereby all i need to do is wait. no matter what. good things worth the wait and its all fated.

so.. and there im into another drama againnnn. lol

class outing is next

the usual class gathering. the usual peeps, think should change by calling them the zoo gang. zoo = place where families go + our nicknames. roflol.

i was feeling rather unwell the whole night actually, and yepp. i turned feverish the moment i reached home. and i had to hide that from my aunt. just in case she dont allow me to go for camp which she normally will. so.. im glad my body's immune system is like a strong onnlyyy. cause after all that sweating the night before. im so so so glad that im able to go for the camp altho im like zonked out.

why i must go is because im the planning comms and if i dun go for the camp, it doesnt make sense isnt it? plus zhu kang is not there on the first night..

and i slept like 4-5 hrs each night.

just in case if you guys dunno who is eliza aka ETgirl. look at her so poor thing! LOL.oh. i think i more cham lor-.-

group photo in the end.

I KNOW ITS A SMALL GROUP. but its really small group then got the homely feeling. esp during the buffet. but i bet you guys dunno how glad am i that the camp has finally ended. its like a heavy stone lifted off my chest. i was so worried that its gonna be chui one but somehow or rather its kind of fun lah. that is so fortunate :D

for this, its the seniors and fellow planning comms i have to give credits to. they helped in a lot. like really a lot. or else. i cant imagined what would have happened. and im kind of lazy to name them all. and of course. the campers also play a part, without them, the camp cant even conducted. and most nan de is, no politics, no attittudes and stuffs. altho there's kind of diversion of cliques, like obvious one. but eventually, all still got tgt as one. so thats a :D

and so.. i kinda will think twice about planning camps anymore, esp in poly. is so damn different from sec sch. and most impt of all. i lack understanding of sch compound, sch facilities, sch's way of management which i dont look eye to eye to.

but YAY THAT ITS OVERRRRR!

always liked candid shots!

so reached home and slept like 2h which is obviously not enough and went for jingsg xmas gathering at xavis house. it was heartwarming which i dont know why, we had potluck and gift exchange. and just keep talking to tomato and amanda made my day lor. they are just so funnyyyy. stayed til 12plus whereby my eyes are offically closing. reached home at 1am plus.

i really liked some of the gifts the rest are receiving lor. viki gave a bra case? i didnt even know such things exist. tomato got a lomo camera from block. i got a high class chocolate and soap from wendy. and joe got a waterproof bag, amy got the MO SHENG QI scroll. all so cool oneeee. hahahahaa. really is different types of peopo coming tgt as oneeeeeee

and i went to work on christmas which is today and system was down in the morning. some ah tiongs were making big fuss over it. women ah tiongs. it kinda made me realised why cheena peopo are being ostracized, prejudiced at. at certain point of time. they are really too much, but oh well tomorrow's gathering with kor and i probably be packing my room! i need a day to sort out my photos and songs manz! T_T

so there concludes my week somehowwwww....!

Over

2011-12-18T21:35:00.003+08:00

CTs are overrrrrrrrrrrrrr! quite shiok altho i cant get 100marks for poa. i cant balance at the end, CRAPPPPP. and forgot to include in the capital account-.-

nvm. shall blog as promised :D (altho i dno how many are actually still reading this-.-)

Those peeps i've never seen for a year. everytime through the chalet then we get to meet de! and everytime wan go the chalet is to see those peeps! haha, everyone is doing quite well. with those finished A's and those still in poly. i was told that with my first sem's score. i wont be able to go uni anymore. oh well.. i'll still work hard. and bridge will straighten once it comes to the end!

Si gary, wear my np jacket til so shuangzzz. haha

Did the usual chalet stuffs. bbq uh. then ghost stories til early morning. caught 2h of sleep and off to school the next day, yes sumpah damn chui -.- then went back again. hmm. 2nd night didnt stay. oh well. tired ma.

Red cross chalettttt

Ms tay become skinner alrdddd! SUPER impressed with her diet but i dont tink im able to do that.. so i guess i'll stick with more exercises but hor. the weather is not helping much..

CAN ONE CAN ONE. KA YOU :D

its the usual homey feel whenever i get back to AMKSS. not only is poly too big to get involved, the peopo in there are also of funny shapes and sizes that, i dunno whether to say its good or not. and so positively seen alot of things through the wheelpower camp planning. its, disappointing. so much different from sec sch. and kind of decided just go for training for sports de can alrd. Rest ah. close one eyes. or else. i think i will vomit whole tankful of blood.

Let's just start with the basic replying of sms-es and attendance. and if one made the promised to commit, why isnt it seen?

so the rc camp(which is ages ago) quite fun and nua. cause ended up me and vivian went to study in staffroom with ms tay supervising us. but she end up falling aslp! epic. and first time see her sleep with us. on the table somemore. wow... oh we had steamboat too. NCOs and seniors. okay actually seniors comeback. admit. i didnt do much. i wanted to. but again, no position to do so and 90% of the time im also not there to see whats going on. so, no point.

But. lets say i always loved the feeling to go back to our alma mater dear.

ohyes. u didnt see wrongly, its ah jing with mask in the middle. im too shy to go beside her to take photo la. im fine just standing there. okay actually alot of times i see her. i dun dare to say anything except keep looking at her. lol.

guiltily, this photo was taken when i pon-ed morning lecture! hehe. but its my first time sending her off! next time shall try picking her up! (if dun clash with lessons la)

so shall patiently wait for her third album and her concert !!^^

so guess what i did after CTs ended? hang out with min to hit town! wow. finally after so long. i feel like some cavegirl that week. study test home school. like nv ending cycle. so glad tat its overrrr! oh met up with monster too and then went movie-ing with huimin as well. Magic to Win! watch peeps! think the storyline is quite nice and its quite funny. like what min say, reminds us of those old movies whereby we will watch cause the storyline is so simple. + got 2 shuaiz ge to watch. louis koo and wu zhun. hehe^^V

lastly. after the 9plus movies, we went to eat prataaaaa. suddenly craving for it siol. reached home at about gg 1am. quite late. haha.

and the next day went training after dinner ing with ET, Karno and darren. Darren is so funny. and poor ET kena teased all the time. haha. but it was quite fun with them. hope new year countdown not too weird sia....

oh well, time to catch on my gumiho! and found one drama to watch alrd. hehe

请给自己多一点时间也给时间一点时间

worthy

2011-12-12T21:52:00.002+08:00

绝对是一首经典的老歌反正超好听就是了！

有时不禁想为什么你不是我等待的那个人

所谓因为不能接受所以痛苦我想我释然了

为彼此写下句点也删除了所有点点滴滴

巨蟹的壳就是坚硬的！很难拆除

所以总能很快恢复真庆幸啊~！

alritey... i know im not supposed to be here but... tomorrow's paper 4pm lehhh. and im gonna study til quite late ba. but just finding myself pretty bored these few days. GOSH. i need my social life backkkk!!! )):

met up with huimin on sunday.. went to TP with her. while doing my work. Her school's definitely kind of far. the bus journey home definitely made us both drowsy. but thanks for the company altho shld be you thanking me. but i guess i need to go out breathe some fresh air. cooping at home is a no good ah. haha

Recently kinda boring cause study week and when im bored, i'll just watch lots of kpop stuffs. like recently into running manz and invincible youth 2. FUNNY MAX. TOTAL DE-STRESS. but invincible youth 1 was funnier with kim shin young! but invincible youth 2 is not bad cause there's sunny and hyeoyon and amber!! hehe.

Got a feeling i'll finish up EVERYTHING during the holidays. Cant wait for holidays to come manz! altho got project to do. sian max.

oh and probably after common test week, ima go back to work. Earn a bit extra pocket money. Wont die ah. contemplating whether to work on saturday only. At least Sunday can rest eh. and definitely going back bali to see parents during March i guess. Gonna source for cheap air tix soon. Tempted to go back learn driving also!

OHH. Anybody booking me for xmas , new year eve and new year? Or else, am gonna work!! Money please come rolling in. So that i can shun bian save up for my taiwan trip next year! HEHEHEHEHE^_^V

okok.realised neh blog abt rc camp and kor's chalet, til next time bah! while i go study le :D

yearning for

2011-12-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

wanna be as free as a bird

you know its like. after so many days of travelling outside. i dont expect much but neither do i wan more. and back to the same old problem. sometimes things will be much easier if i live outside alone by myself. and then my friends would say. you wouldnt like to live outside alone. yet actually i do. and the urge and feelings just gets stronger as i grew older.

sigh. i wonder how much longer i could endure :/

sometimes i thot of the person who thot would give me much more happiness than ever. but actually, it was the opposite. im not being resentful here but sometimes i cant help but feeling it that way. and then my friend would say. as times goes by, i will feel better. ohyes i will

talking about the future house im living in. i will have 3 rooms. one for ah jing's collection, one for study room and one more bedroom for me and my future doggy^^ the room for ah jing will be the one filed with all collection of her. thats super duper cool when i think about it :D

super zonked out once again. slept 2 hours ytd. cabbed home just now. wasted. im like following the poly-sters trend now. little bit little bit jiu cab, heart pain siol.

and i'll continue to work hard! sometimes right, its not that i dont wan to depend on a person. but somehow, depending on ownself has been the way it is and fate chose to give me a hard patch to cross.

i hope i'll stay strong

PS: up next to blog about

1. red cross camp

2. kor's chalet

3 studies

Post Jing Syndrome

2011-11-29T23:06:00.003+08:00

Once again, i missed ah jing. It's like she's forever there for me. Teaching me to see life in a different way. i hope i could stick by you, forever~!(:

Warning, you all can choose not to read this post, am perfectly fine with it. haha

see her cute expression with the durian! hehe, another durian hater^^ and wiping sweat for derrick. wooah. scandalous^^

So as usual, when i mentioned am gonna chase Jing. i'll always kena laughed at. hehe. its okay. nobody understands but so long i happy canz alrd! i really wonder how long this time round i need to wait to see her again, im sure pretty long ):

so, quit asking why i like her cause i just like her so~ and im happy just silently watching her shine on stage. not needing any repayment.

ohhh... best part of the weekend was, it was burnt badly. its like once i reached home, i will just KO. and managed to see Hebe(again) with her awesome live singing , plus Show Luo. The guy's not bad too actually. and we were caught in the rain with ponchos during queuing up. caught ah jing doing her rehearsal whereby she came down to stage to shook hands with us. awwwwww.sweeet. and awesomeeeee! thats what i like about her sometimes. sweet to fans altho she sometimes a bit bo chap ah.

and melted when i hear her voice :x

and some fans dispute. where jess mama hospitalised, a 14yr old fan stalking ah jing at hotel. Honestly think they're crazy. Ah jing is also human, she needa rest too rite?

so the craziest, probably stupidest thing i did was to pon lecture to send her off airport. i nv tried sending anyone off before and feel like doing something stupid, out of ordinary life so there. and ended up kena scolded by jingsg peopo. they are so cute lahhhh.

didnt i mention? thanks to jing, i get to meet ALOT of different types of peopo that shocked me. Good to see them too, like a mini catch up. hehe

and i kind of forgot what i wanted to post. too tired. and all i knew was i did sai kang today-.- like zzz. changing the wheels of wheelchairs. and i thot there's trng but due to poor attendance..zzz. nvm. shall wait for Sat then!

haven really thot of what to do with the memories yet, but please move on. cause im not worth it and im not the one.

Booo

2011-11-28T12:59:00.001+08:00

New Blogskin New start.

LIKE A FOOL NOW. CAUSE ACCIDENTALLY MASS EMAILED MY PPT SLIDES. zzz

Move on

2011-11-23T13:04:00.002+08:00

Woke up. Feeling as zonked out as ever. Just feel empty. The heart and mind is not together. I know that i'll brace myself. Whats worst that i havent gone through? But i remember waking up feeling unrealistic. Feeling unreal.

Thot of why it didnt work out. Because we are not suitable. Not that i dont wan to try. Its tiring to try. And i could just hurt u once again in the process. Or could be alot worser. No one can guarantee that the same issue wont occur again. Its just like no matter how much is tried. Its gonna be the same. I nv would ever wanna hurt u. It was never my intention. I know that whatever is said are useless cause i did hurt u.

Thinking of it on another perspective. U'll find another girl thats gonna be better than me a lot. Somebody worthy of you. Not me, someone who dno how to love, who dno what its all about. Who only cares about herself. Who only wans to stay in her comfort zone, satisfied with how life is.

So please, dont tink of me too much. Im not good. Stay strong.

And now. I'll just continue on missing you. And i'll be alright. I'll only remember all ur merits. How much u gave me. What u had given me. And how u made me feel. Thankyou.

Sitting down alone somewhere. Its been some time since i did that.

So now. What do i do with all those memories?

你还是要幸福

2011-11-21T00:45:00.003+08:00

我好想大哭一场歇斯底里地

最终还是走到了这步就是那么不堪一击

试过了真的累了

说实在不开心的日子多过开心的日子

不知道是我还是哪里出差错

我真的很想孤注一掷就那么狠狠地陷下去

很显然心是不会骗人的

不管多么努力试着说服自己最终还是这样

问我是否动情我想是有的要不然怎么会怎么痛苦

只是可能中毒的不够深那么长痛不如短痛

真狠的一句话

有人说人生就是不断的尝试一次有一次

但人也会累试一次伤一次试十次伤十次

最终什么也不敢做何必呢

想了想原来是

我们彼此都太爱自己了根本什么都不懂

太有自己的想法太多不同的想法

时间远远只能淡化伤痛从未能让你忘掉

若作出了决定就不会再回头

这也是我的坚持

但此刻的我想你了

我想我需要时间恢复尝试了无悔了

虽然怎么说我还是想说

早知今日何必当初呢？

永远不能解答的谜底

原以为自己什么都懂其实是什么都不懂

面对你我永远迷失自己

也知道相爱既不容易在一起更难

满满的回忆塞满口袋

祝福你的一切也谢谢你的一切

就让我沉淀在悲伤中吧

成长的一部分一切都会过去

曾经重要的假日也会变得不重要

你要活得比现在更快乐

记得伤害不是任何人想要的

记得这不是任何人的错

记得这么一段的我们

现在能不能有一个人用一把刀

将我的心刺进

好让它死去不再痛不再动

detached

2011-11-04T00:36:00.005+08:00

as usual, slept late again. oh well, just settled some wp stuffs. just feel like writing tonight.

today had sports climbing-rock climbing. at kismis near the bball court. now my arms are like strengthless, the nerves ache a bit.okay. quit complaining ._.

and love monster for going Mnet with meeee. hehe. i totally wanna see Ga In unnie and Brown eyed girls. or else, cfm regret T_T and ah jing's coming in nov! nov's gonna be great monthhhh! :D

found the chinese book that i've been looking for so long. i missed chinese and somehow staring at the words- it felt distant. CANT. loved chinese too much. gotta read it!!!

but what i wanna say is, i missed those days whereby i had muscle aches with the other 6 of them. i missed all the camps, all the familiar grounds and faces. With me being the lamest girl ever, with all of them being by my side. Its just i missed all of you. It happens to me sometimes. Despite after so long, say going a year? still will miss you all sometimes. but. life has to go on. sigh.

and its first time i find it so hard to bring a point across. i dont know how to tell you how i feel. i guess both of us just wanted to believe in it. Just treasuring each and moment with you. Despite everything, i hope at the end of the day, we are with each other. Nobody is perfect. It's overlooking all those imperfections that makes everything worth it. i dont wanna regret for not trying. and no matter what. i'll stick by you as promised.

okay enough thinking. time to sleep. just sometimes wish i can do even more.

the point

2011-11-02T13:12:00.002+08:00

Here at NP library once again, waiting for time to pass, srsly, 3h break is a bitch. It's not a bitch i guess if i ought to be enjoying the companion of my classmates, but apparantly, not so.

and so if its only 1h break, i will end at 2pm. HOW SHIOK IS THATTTT!! and yes. ending at 2pm for this sem is such a glee. but oh well the earliest im supposed to end sch is.. 4pm T_T

sometimes, i really enjoy reading other people's blogs. Other than reading about their regular updates about each of their lives, it will also set me thinking and letting my thoughts just float around and ponder. To the extent, agreeing with the bloggers point of view.

It's true that love never dies. In fact, love keeps everything around me going. Love for family, love for friends, love for the other half. Thats where come sacrifices, thoughtfulness, arguements, spicing up life. Eg. a father works very hard for the family to give them financial support, so what keeps him going when the times are tough? the love for his family.

so thats more or less how life is isnt it? Actually realised this point since long ago.......! so people who are dearest to me.. LOVE YA GUYS LOTS OKAY!! :DDD

and so ytd still got trng, despite the raining at 4plus. i thot it was cancelled, really wanted to pon, but in e end nv, cause since there's no trng tonight.and i kinda really wanna exercise. just kept thinking of wanting to play normal basketball since there's so many kakis to play with now and it burns fats more effectivelyyyy lahhhh!! LOL

and so the 2vs2 was kinda fun esp when i have no problem having body contact with ETgirl^^ usually play with boys must be careful mahhh. so did have my share of fun ytd, and before that it was the WP camp meeting. Hopefully things can go well on the actual event itself. and its been ages since i planned things lah. esp camps. but poly camps are so not fun. still dun understand why night trails arent allowed.zzz. spoilerrrrrr.

then my itouch is with ETgirl. the laggers playing cartrider nowwww, liek so long ago de game canz! haha. i dont know why when the time i couldnt find it in my bag, i didnt panic. i kind of knew its with one of them.. cool or cool? LOL. and the ETgirl so nice to return me today with it fully chargeddddd! :D

and jo came ytd! short visit tho. but felt great to see her and aft so long.. but she looked tired and we didnt talk much. oh well.. sometimes the things that i dread, dont want it to come but it will always will? i rather thot its me thinking too much again

oh right, today lunched with yao. hehe, escape from classmates, why?
1) they always took long time to decide where to eat(shd b out of sch area but i lazy?)
2) no fun joy peace and laughter
3) 3hours break are to be spent WISELY. lol.

okayokay, gonna meet mr croc laterrr and i better go for next class alrd!^^

A little bit each time

2011-10-31T00:46:00.002+08:00

can anyone tell me why vampire diaries song always managed to catch me?(:

and so its official, i told my colleagues and manager that im taking break in nov and probably going back in dec but not so sure yet. i do feel bad but i know its for the best. i feel like im so drained nowwwww ):

yes. if you ask me. i like to blog at night, its simply because when its at night, my mind thinks in a different way than it is. and i always let my mind drift then shrugs off all those funny thoughts, well it's just me.

i wonder if all the cancers all over the world over thinks like me. its not a very good thing anyw. just saying~

was chatting away with one of my jingsg friends. oh well. it was a good chat and we do think similarly somehow. since we both are cancers. but it was what a sharing session. cause she shared so much with me(first time eh)

and so i can finally TGIF on this coming friday because no work on weekends! rest nua and pei youuuuu. :DDD cause the past two weeks felt i've not rested!!and cant believe i survived two weeks of half work half study. so really must salute to all these peopo who are constantly doing so!!(:

so as usual, dun wan sch to start tmrrr, or rather, dun wan go to sch tmrrr. but cant wait for sch to enddd. muhahaahahha.

okay. brain dead. nites all.

you are the apple of my eye

2011-10-28T23:33:00.004+08:00

Let me fill up the post with pics first! hehe.

Wheelchair basketball leagues GIRLS TEAM!

Community service cluster captain ball friendly games

HPC MEET UP! (:

confirm watching this movies and super tempted to find the book!! next week shld b able to get the book hopefully^^

okay i dunno what font is this but it looks nice and im so tempted to type more and more. hahaha.

so judging from my last post.. looks liek alot to catch up siol. and as usual im busy with working on weekends and i worked on wed deepavali payof 9bucks per h. cool or cool? like moneyyyy roll in.. so.. it became quite hard for me to take a 'break' from my work because i've grown a tad bit attached to it and saying goodbye will cause lack of manpower or sth like that and i do feel bad to my manager. so thats all. still thinking whether to work on and off and so shall see how

and i catched ep 7 of vamp diaries 3 alrd. ITS LIKE I ALWAYS CANT GET ENOUGH OF IT!! and its awesome that u also watchedddd! cause i thot u wouldnt watch since its like so girl girl. hehe XD but nv regret righttt^^

so i guess alot i didnt talked about and i just let things passed and just let day pass a day because working on weekends made me felt like im not resting at all!! sheesh!

so i guess lets start with the HPC gathering. well the usual 7 of us at the italian restaurant at farrer park and as much tired as i am,its always good to meet them then shun bian update them and update each other luh.. and it was short dinner with vivian leaving earlier and spent the time chatting for a while. typical us and i keep showing them what eliza do to me... "YOU SO CUTE" next moment " NAH THROW AWAY" they always got shocked at the last part. which is really funny! hahaha. so hoping the rest of them are doing fine by now esp their promos results!

next up was the dplus gathering last sunday nite. and yes i agreed about the its funny how we just start things up by playing truth or dare, we cannt just straight ask de siol. must use sth spin spin spin den our turn. den talk. LOL. typical us as usual. and meeting them was a bit nua too since i just done with work and they cant decide where to eat!! (i thot we gonna drink lor!tsk) so then ended up at handburger. okay first time there, so it was a very fullfilling dinner. LOL. and nua-ed at scape, good space to nua too^^

so lastly, is the csc captain ball.. it was funnnnnnnn!! and well. i really like to mix w wp peopo alottt. so much that sometimes or again and again, always sian-ed by the thot that almost all of them are graduating next yr. i will miss that whole bunchh of them alot for sureeee ):

then kena cheated cause it thot watching movies w sencai and huimin they all tat night and in e end its cancelled. but well. nvm...

actually sometimes there's alot on my mind but i kind of dun really blogged abt it cause i somehow feel this space is a bit unsafe. i mean anyone can have access to this isnt it? thinking of locking it and stuffs but shall see how it goes.

there's just sometimes this queasy feeling that i dunno how to say but there are things that i preferred to take it slowly. cause its something like what i wanna do is for the long term and more or less i trust feelings and instincts alot , so much that i will start to overthink a lot of things. definitely not good. and so. i confide in my diary, which i will laugh at my old entries. LOL. so actually, i do feel that i wanna know more about you!!! lets just see how! :D

but i guess its good enough that i got you~! waiting for our first month celeb! hehe^^

sch's startinggggg! ):

2011-10-14T02:27:00.002+08:00

Its been ages since i've blogged. OMGGGG!!

i AM that busy. actually its working life and i kind of rather spend it on sleeping than using comp? why oh why? no idea. probably its just humans. i remb i used to go online daily without fail in the past cause i wasnt given a chance to but now in poly, using comp is like eating, everyday affairs and yet now im not using the chance to go online everyday. i guess its better that way. the time used on computer are spent much wiser. so yepp!!

must be wondering why im not aslp yet right? well. just came home not long ago from helping SenCai with his interns stuffs. One phone call from Huimin and im downnnn. well, also cause the place is very near my house or else i wouldnt bother siol. and ended up helping til abt 1.30am. tireddd. esp since after work i went to eat steamboat.

why suddenly eat steamboat? not exactly, got my pay and realised i ought to show sth. so treated aunt they all to steamboat. well. been wanting to do so ever since i've been working 2yrs ago? but the pay was too little and always worked for short term. finally found a job that can stay long term!

and decided to work til end of OCt. of course when sch starts i will work on weekends only. just hope i can manage :x and busy working is funnnn. esp when i like the job. and esp when my colleagues all planning to feed me like a pig -.-

so today was really really busy with all the JC1 students flocking at kbox after their promos. tsktsk. almost died cause so busyyy.

OMG and this week didnt watch BEG's performance as well as vamp diaries.. means next wk got 2 eps to catch up alrddddd. it's getting more and more awesomeeeee!!

Oh did i mention? got myself involved in the planning for the wp camp. and i thot i wanted to enjoy myself as participants but oh well. since shaw n zhukang all in it. lets all do this togetherrrr!! ^^ so hoping that the plannings etc will go smoothly and camp not too chui lorrrrrr!

---------------------------------------------------------------

Not too recently, a person entered my life. and i kinda dno how to describe how it feels like except its really special? after all its like the first time and somehow i still feel glad and happy about it. its always better than making myself regretful. but just kinda scared to juggle it. since sch's starting soon too. but i guess everything will just work out fine(:

guess because of that. when i looked arnd, i'll have the less envious feel. and oh sometimes scared will attract ants. okay lameeee. and ya. going arnd with THAT news to shock peopo is also something to look forward to!! haha.

but well, just know that you are impt to me okay!!! :DDD

---------------------------------------------------------------

The one of the many recent things that happened. i cant help but blame myself a bit for what it happened. of course i definitely know that its not exactly my fault but perhaps my effort put in wasnt that strong and perhaps this peacemaker that im playing is not hard working enuff? its just something that u guys shld know that noboody can be replaced, no matter how. i guess like what u've said. Once lost, its lost. so its kinda pointless to try to hold back or hold on to whats been lost. why not look forward to the future, whereby we'll still keep in contact whenever possible? it just sucks sometimes to see things turning out this well. oh well =/

and definitely not letting history repeat itself.

okay gotta crash. nitessss!!
shall blog again before sch starts. OMG dun wan sch to start, whines* ):

talking to the moon

2011-10-03T21:48:00.005+08:00

like this pic alot ehhh...
guess i never really had a chance to upload pics of bkk trip but ah. now become overdued pics alrd. i still remember i had like post bkk trip syndrome for 2-3days manz ):

Life has been good to me so far. my colleagues are great and i liked my job and i think im growing like fatter. no joke. at the rate im eating and not exercising. but ah. aft work too tired to exercise le you know! but shall go swim on sun^^

wed my company gonna send me to some hygiene course. actually is kbox la. company sounds so high-crass. haha. a bit curious to know what izit about and hope im not late for trng ah.. OH~ it's been quite some time since i've been typing stuffs on comp manz. i had like 5days without switching on my computer and poly studying hours is like keep using comp all the time and typing away.

recently somebody is 'barging'into my life. not actually literally doing that, more like creeping into my life uh.. i didnt expect that its suppose to feel this way and been days since i talk to some of my besties. so it feels like, i could count on you...(:

watched kang xi lai le and vampire diaries and catching up BEG live performances.kang xi is funny as usual. vamp diaries getting more and more awesome and complications and honestly. BEG new album not as good.. as her old album. like their 2nd album is da best. oh well. commercialised or else they wont be famous ):

now i know why im feeling a bit sad. not sad. disappointed actually.. i did mention to fats that if gonna catch westlife's concert. we shld catch it together. but well. we didnt and fats is watching with her other friend which, you know. how do u expect me to react except acting nonchalant? crappppp ):

and not too way back then. i met up with Yong Guang. oh yes, u arent seeing things. its him.. had abt an hour catching up with him with his life and.. okay, not so abt mine. but hearing him rant and tat he's getting better and getting shitty GOOOD results. feels happy for him. since last time during upper sec we used to hang quite alot. but whatever it is.. all the best and i'll arrange meet-ups with huan soon too! haha

to mention, match is coming up on sat and i hope to do my very best and i will! and also ccant wait for coming friday nighttt :D

you see now. one of bad points about blogging is whatever i wanna type. i'll end up forgetting -.- nvm then.. short post for todayyyy !

and currently hooked to this song intro-ed by huimin!!
damn nice ah~

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

okay tonight must sleep earlier since tmr got work! (:

monster vi

2011-09-28T11:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAYY VI!! (treat this as 27th post okie)

a bit irritating cause the video and voice dun sync

第一次见面看你不太顺眼 (The first time i saw you, i didn’t have a good impression)
谁知道后来关系那么密切 (Who would have guessed that we would be close friends?)
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天 (One of us is like summer, one like autumn)
却总能把冬天变成了春天 (But we can always turn winter into spring)

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪 (U dragged me out of a stormy love affair)
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼 (I carried u to escape from dream’s tekan)
遇见一个人然后生命全改变 (To have your life changed after meeting a person)
原来不是恋爱才有的情节 (Is not a situation that happens only in romance)

如果不是你我不会相信 (If not ‘cos of u, i wouldn’t believe)
朋友比情人还死心塌地 (Friends can be more loyal than lovers)
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰 (Even if i’m caught up in love and “put u in the freezer”)
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句 (U won’t hate me, and would only scold me a little)

如果不是你我不会确定 (If not ‘cos of u, i wouldn’t be certain)
朋友比情人更懂得倾听 (Friends can be better listeners than lovers)
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心 (My lofty ambitions and my unintentional words)
我离不开darling更离不开你 (I can’t leave my darling, neither can i leave u)

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪 (U dragged me out of a stormy love affair)
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼 (I carried u to escape from dream’s tekan)
遇见一个人然后生命全改变 (To have your life changed after meeting a person)
原来不是恋爱才有的情节 (Is not a situation that happens only in romance)

如果不是你我不会相信 (If not ‘cos of u, i wouldn’t believe)
朋友比情人还死心塌地 (Friends can be more loyal than lovers)
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰 (Even if i’m caught up in love and “put u in the freezer”)
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句 (U won’t hate me, and would only scold me a little)

如果不是你我不会确定 (If not ‘cos of u, i wouldn’t be certain)
朋友比情人更懂得倾听 (Friends can be better listeners than lovers)
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心 (My lofty ambitions and my unintentional hurtful words)
我离不开darling更离不开你 (I can’t leave my darling, neither can i leave u)
你了解我所有得意的东西 (U understand all of the little things i’m proud about)
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形 (U expose my bragging gently in case i become too haughty)
你知道我所有丢脸的事情 (U know all my embarrassing moments)
却为我的美好形像保密 (But keep them a secret to preserve my image)

-------------------------------------------------------------

basically this video is dedicated to you
cause i find some part of the lyric really talking about us, esp first sentence!
i dunno how we ended up this close but i think its pretty cool
sorry if i have been 'irritating'
and the usual thank you stuffs that i would have mentioned in your card.
just wanna say, you are stuck with me this lifetimeeeeeeeee!!
hope you enjoyed your day ytd and our 'failed' surprise
zzzz
everytime fail one -.-

treasured ones

2011-09-25T18:49:00.004+08:00

Have been busy working this recently.
i think time passed really fast when you are working
it aids alot if you are not feeling too happy or something
cause there's something to fill u up in a way

If i am not wrong. i haven been updating much about my current job!
but just to mention, i liked my workplace alot and peopo there too!
esp this bartender friend Leo, macam kor kor to me!
then another bartender friend , Andy whom i mentioned his love story very interesting
and then some colleagues like Jeck Joe and Jasmine and Hannah
friendly peopo and best part of all. this job have this sense of freedom somehow
and dont nid scared of having no customers and having to 'see peopo face'
cause at most the most difficult situation will be when you are damn suay to meet damn GL customers but other than that its fine luhhh
thats why the consideration of working long term for it!
but judging from my next sem's timetable. cfm gonna fail if i ban gong ban du. see how then!

just not too recently.
had a wp outing at clarke quay minds
i swore i nv laughed so much again.
to think some simple games could be so funnnnn.
but i guess its the companion right?(:
pretty sure in the future am so gonna miss these bunch of peopo. sigh
but meanwhile, must spend as much time with them as possible!
the current best plan! :D

not too recently.. actually ytd.
was wp guys' match at RP
feel like telling them that no matter what,
they are the best to me!!!! champion alrd! WIN ALRD!
it sounds cliche/stupid/lame
but i guess the process is important. altho undoubtfully results still the most important of all but didnt we enjoyed the times we had?
and if we found out that we're not good enough, so all the more we shld work harder for it.

WHEELPOWER!! WOOSHHHHH!! ((:

so now im really busy... with my current idols!

i swore i waited god damn long for BEG's comeback..

wait until become giraffee alrd and then my awesome indo cousin bought their album for me

OHMYGODDDD! shi high de lor! :D

so i will look forward to every week to their live performances

and another thing to look forward to is the Vampire diaries season 3!!

they are backkkk!!

i always loved their songs other than their suave male leads and chio female lead

i realised not too recently too

went singing k with fats.

it was really great but this time round both of us find the singing timeis not enough.

ohwell. meeting up soon again

and my songs list increasing in my itouch! happy :D

and dad went back today.

sometimes i feel that im not a good daughter

oh and ytd i was stuck in the situation of making choices AGAIN.

i think i've grown immune to it already

since life is a series of choices

but sometimes i just wished that things arent so cramped together

wished that the choices that i have to choose from are not so hard to do

and as well as being able to take up the consequences

)):

talking to BFF ytd night

and from the past til now.

my views still stand

i dont really care how others look at me but i do care how the ones i cared think about me

i will wan to explain to them and let them know how much they mean to me

and therefore thats why when i started to care for you all

it is from the bottom of my heart and that it affects me no matter what it is

cause u all meant a lot to me

as for those.. friends.they are friends lor

life will be much easier to live in my sense at least

so dont be too shocked if i ever do anything silly/funny just for you all! :D

time to catch my shows and do my stuffs!

buh byeeee!

lucky from the past til now. i have music and ah jing with me
but in the nearing future...

ah jingggggg

2011-09-21T14:53:00.002+08:00

liking this song alottt. due to the drama. muhahaha, liking rainie more and more too!

big love to ah jinggg!!
melted my heart when i hear her singggg

OMO OMO OMO :DDD

Back to reality

2011-09-17T10:20:00.003+08:00

Back to here again
I guess i really need to type something here
Or halfway thru somewhere i might just died.

Yesterday...
Double blow day? Maybe?
Cant help but feeling sad
Or what else can i do?

Watched drama to numb myself the whole day
Good thing was i finished all the episodes
Bad thing was back to the harsh reality
Things that were haunting me
Dreaded to wake up this morning
Partially cause i didnt sleep well ytd.

Dunno how long i'll be sad.
But what else can i do except work harder?
But it looks like its different altogether

我知道后果但又能怎样
原来偶像剧的情节是不会发生在现实世界的
以后要习惯这样的以后

What's meant to be will be
Time will prove

crazy stupid love

2011-09-14T16:46:00.002+08:00

Oh Well..
ended up in school to kill timeee..
watched crazy stupid love with monster.
understood whats the spazz about the male lead
hehehe.. he's well. charismatic.
kinda liked him best when he shaved his beard etc, clean faceeee
and yue kan yue you feel wor

and too bad sch comp cannt post pic of him.
he really looked more shuaiz w/o beard
and so. awaiting time to pass before trng

so just wanna say this to monster.
thanks for pei ing me todayyyy.
epiccccc.
we talked alot about our good old days
and seriously speaking
tell me why we are on better speaking terms when we are on phone or online
rather than meeting face to face
i thought i was the only one feeling that way
but ended up we both felt that way.
EPIC SHIT
oh well. this means we must 'connect' more
hahahahaaha. lameeeeeeeeee
anyw remb my cap and enjoy your bkk trip
:DDDD

appreciating lone bus ride alot.
altho prolly half of the time i end up sleeping
cause too tired and forever not enough sleep.
hahahahahah!
but get to do some self reflection!

ytd trng cancelled due to rain
it sucks.. i didnt even sweat at all canz
and the most retarded thing was
i slept and overshoot my stop by 2.
thats pure dumb. adding to my retarded list
which i remb there's a time when i boarded the wrong bus aft RC trng
cause too tireddddd.
now thats retarded too

okayyyy. gtg niao. ciaos!

shit la this comp cannt type chinese ):

you ren gao shu wo.
deng dai ye shi yi zhong xin fu o
na me wo xuan zhe deng dai
xuan zhe rang yin yue pei ban wo
sui ran ta ye zhong man le hui yi...

asshole

2011-09-13T22:07:00.001+08:00

FUCK. sometimes i feel like im an asshole

im just bad, right from the bottom

this sucks

new job

2011-09-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

Details
Title: 醉後決定愛上你 / Zui Hou Jue Ding Ai Shang Ni

English title: Love You

Genre: Romance, comedy

Synopsis

Two strangers, both proposed marriage to their respective girl/boyfriend, were rejected on the same day. They decided that the best way to deal with the rejection was to get drunk, real drunk. During the 24 hours of their crazy drunkenness, these two stranger became best friends and got married… to each other. When they finally sobered up, they went on a mission to undo every crazy thing they did while they were drunk and prayed that their girl/boyfriend don’t find out before they can cover all their tracks.

alright.. recently into this drama.. been quite some time since i watched taiwan drama, ever since im into kpop? and oh well. today just got the feel to blog and wont be blogging much cause i wanna catch up on this show! hehehe :D

not enough sleepppp . gahhhh

so for the past 3days, i've been working at kbox. its kind of a new environment for me, perhaps others wouldnt think much of this job as decent one but i like the job? say i like the environment and the fact that its near my house!

so today was kinda good cause another part timer came by but apparantly must wait til next week then can see her. oh well. there's this senior who's called Leo which guided me ALOT. thanks so much. he kind of say im a fast learner. but i dun tink so . and he's actually the one who got me this job, when i jokingly told min i wanna work at kbox. and he just passed me the application form^^

so.. i know its too early to say but. im really liking the job well. especially when u get to see funny and interesting peopo and then um chio-ing at the guests awful singings. sometimes u will just wish to call them to shut up! hahahahaa. and i get to re-cap my songs list. muahahahhah and i get to save money on transport and lunch(sometimes just eat the kbox bento) muhahahahahah again!

recently hooked onto this song

那些年-胡夏

The MV is damn cute.. cause the guy damn sweet.

又回到最初的起点

记忆中你青涩的脸

我们终于来到了这一天

桌垫下的老照片

无数回忆连结

今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点

呆呆地站在镜子前

笨拙系上红色领带的结

将头发梳成大人模样

穿上一身帅气西装

等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光

回到教室座位前后　故意讨你温柔的骂

黑板上排列组合　你舍得解开吗

谁与谁坐他又爱着她

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想拥抱你　拥抱错过的勇气

曾经想征服全世界

到最后回首才发现

这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想告诉你　告诉你我没有忘记

那天晚上满天星星

平行时空下的约定

再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你

紧紧抱着你

The similarity is that.. both guys are very sweet. in the drama as well as in MV!(:

sometimes i wish i could be less rationale and just go crazy.

eg. boarding the bus while dancing to my fav kpop song

but i cant.

i've been fighting with my mind, alright. i know it sounds crazy

and probably im glad i got the job

it make me think lesser as i dont have the idle time to do so

so in overall. finding this job is a good deal! :D

and few things to be happy about. catching up with my bestie on wed and movie-ing on fri. LOL. hao bu rong yi off days and im going out again, oh well. bo biannnn

seriously. cancerians are weird peopo

as much as i dun like to stay at home to face the peopo there

i liked staying at home.

to the extent that if i dun stay at home.

i will feel guilty about it

oh well

i just contradicted myself

nevermindddd. time to catch on my drama!:D

and after thinking it through.. lets just let things be for the time being..

感觉？

2011-09-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

今天感觉怪怪的好像少了些什么
可能你的温柔给太多害得我看不清
但竟然做了决定就不该任性地奢望什么
不是吗？

又过了一天我好像是被遗忘的那个
我想你应该知道我不曾离开过
只要你需要我都在

想问是不是感情会毁掉友情？
好怕历史又再重演

今天帮美文庆生
虽然过早但没办法
看起来不是很成功

算了！

不该想太多
明天要打工喽
有些许的兴奋！

-edited-
Some lazy ass that wan me to translate. No fun siol coz i still like to type cheena.. Here goes
Weird day today with unusual feel. Feels like lacking of something. Dont know what
Maybe it could be the care given was too much that i lost my way somehow
But since judgement was already givenI shldnt be selfishly hoping for anything more
Lost the right to do so

Another day passed and i seem to be the forgotten one
Im sure u know i have not left at all
I will be here always

Pondering to myself, does every r/s spoils friendship?
Im so scared of history repeating itself again..

Time to sleep!!
Lazy to type anymoreeeeee

Abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz!!!

my loveeeeee

2011-09-06T11:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH JINGGGG! :DDD

i thought i was liek too tired to blog today but ohwell, its jing's birthday. how can i dun post anythingggg !! muhahahaahhaah

so just wanna thank ahjing for her presence.
thank my uncle for subscribing miotv
thank my boredom cause if not i wont switch on the video and get to know ah jing
thanking my committee members for setting up the fan club
for not i wouldnt know so many other cool peopo outside my mini social circle
thank ah jing for being there for me when it was the saddest period of my life.
thank ah jing for her cheerfulness and everything
most importantly. her voice and music

BIG LOVE TO HERRRRR (:

------------------------------------------------------------------

side track a bit.
its a mysterious case unsolved. i cant help but wonder who was the one reading the tweets. whatever it is FUCK the person. fucking rude uh. screw you. i hate it when peopo read/do thing without my permission esp pertaining to my issues.

ohyea. saw some tweets that corresponds. cute lehh. i mean im curious to know but. im not allowed to know? hannoh. LOL

today trng was not very good. after 1 wk's hiatus. mayb not hiatus, so exaggerating. but still. performance kinda suck-ed. and im happy that im able to get hebe's album. BY TMRRRR :DDD

so league's on 24sept. time to train damn darn super duper hard! FIGHTINGGGG WHEELY PEOPO! (:

???

2011-09-04T00:36:00.003+08:00

突然觉得这首歌很贴切
可能所以才选择不去想不去猜
是自己过不了自己那关

today was a long day for me. so tiring that on the way home, i just kept falling aslp. and my independent mind forced myself to keep myself awake. cause i cant afford to overslept my stop

rrecently no concession, spent alot on tranport siaaaa. like sian onlyyyy ):

footdrill competition was really sucha long way back then. brings back memories of cadet and NCOs life. how much we went through. despite not getting into the finals. i didnt find myself wasting my time at all. its just sad to see that the juniors arent proud nor felt the need of putting in effort in the competition.

its also true that as time passes by. passion becomes responsibility

and good thing was i pei-ed ms tay. come on. im so friendly siol. and talked quite a lot to her. she like dun suan or scold me will bu shuangz sia. hahaa. and glad tat dajie and pearlyn turned up. thanks so muchhhh

went for peng hui's birthday celebration. chalet.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLLLLLL!!!

sorry that i cant sleep over and was quite worried abt eliza but aft knowing jb n zk staying. oh well. she's gonna be alright.

and this bloody mouth of mine that keeps shouting stuffs out. i will learn. learn until my mouth is completely stuffs. i swear. but luckily. zk kinda assured me it was no biggie but ohh well.

anyw saw shaw today and it was greattt!! like super long nv see him! bangkok trip can be even more awesome if he was there! but had some share of fun today with him(:

kinda deprived of sleep now. so shall just drop dead on bed aft hair is dryyy !

bangkok trip 2011

2011-09-03T00:55:00.005+08:00

I LOOKED LIKE A KID HEREEEE. zomg

had a pleasently nice moments with monster and elephant. cause its meeting up after so long. other than twosome outings. i think i like threesome outings too. and we prolly shld create another name for our clique. haha

dajie kind of text me why nv jio her for the prata. im kind of speechless actually.and maybe explaining to her sound so fake too. but nevertheless. happy max to meet them. actually i know is huimin wans her bangkok trip pez badly! muhahahahah XDD

and its the best sharing session this time round! come on guys. just admit it XDD

-------------------------------------------------

decided to blog abt bangkok trip altho i shld have done it with the pictures. i guess i shld blog while my mind is still fresh abt it. pichas can do it later ba !

as usual, its the post bangkok trip syndrome. i missed upon waking up all i see the 6 familiar faces which some will wake me up or some not. kind of miss the aircon too. and all the funny jokes. but well. everything will just end somehow. and good things end even faster. just wanna say thanks to all of them who creates this big piece of memory so that i can keep it safe in my memory box(:

so i'll just briefly summarised and mention about the main highlights. dun wan make it too lengthy ah. first nite was hangover p1. ohwell. first time seen others hangover. damn damn damn funny. but i shant mention it. later kena whack by eliza. altho im pretty sure nobody reads this. hahaa. and best was eating first meal at 8plus. eating 2nd meal at 9pm plus. u know how much i loved food and well, its really a miracle that i survived. and the mac employee like v agitated by me. its just funny to eliza which i dno why too. and didnt mean to make him feel so agitated >.<

oh, and drank martell. taste okay, bailey taste weird. really weird

next second day was usual shopping, bangkok is like so big, so many things to see. big until one day also cant shop finish. and relly walked til leg pain la. make me miss my wheelchair only. LOL. bangkok is big but not much peopo which i relly preferred while here is too many peopo with land constraint. which i dun like ALOT. prolly thats why i like to go less crowded places.

third day was aweseom cause we went to dream world. hehe. jo really fufilled her promised and i get to sit on the roller coaster. its still way funner than spore's escape but well. USS maybe more fun ba. best was the wet and wild! so high!! and so wet. liked the moment when i stretched my arms up without holding onto anything. just this epic shiok-ness feel that i dno how to explain^^ and its also the day with the most photo taking session! :DDD

oh if not wrong, went for massage! full body. 1h. quite shiok ah, and its first time trying it. a bit funny coz keep hearing zk's(zhu kang) convo and then cant believe the person tried to get fresh with laodou. EPICCC!!

cant remb what we did at nite. stm siol

4th day was shopping again as usual and well. shopped a bit tad more. come to tink of it. a bit regret. i shld have just bought whatever i like lo. shld not hesitate. mayb its just me la. im not good at shopping and im indeceisive. so.. sua lo!! next time hopefully! or i can pin my hopes on vi!! she's going whattt. muhahahaha XDD

OMG listening to hebe's live. freaking good! cant wait to get her new album!! :D

so the interesting part would the the papong night market. where u see peopo asking u if u wanna catch ping pong show(pls google it if u dno) kind of. eeeeyerrr. altho im quite curious too. but i scared too shocked aft the show then kena trauma. hahaha.

bought the cap i wanted but in e end need to give up to my cousin. am seriously leading a sad life la T_T nvm, kao vi le^^

went up to the observatory tower at 82 floor whereby i saw the real chio view of the whole bkk. u really feel how small u are, how endless the world is and how it feels like to b on top of it. i'll never forget the breath taking view and of coz, the stupid things we did there.

and here is the most interesting part (for me la) I GOT DRUNK, LIKE HANGOVER. heng its considered quite mild. except all i remembered was my head feels god damn heavy. and my world is freaking spinning like nobody's business .zzz. but heng i nv do anything stupid la. except keep shouting gibberish and keep crying. i remb i cried thrice. and then keep talking til i was tired and slept.

anyw. thanks for taking care of me for tat period of time(:

so.. ohya, dreamland hor, the guys won the girls soft toy. actually macam those tv shows la. but hor, not practical. i kind of dno what to do with the panda, cause its not v cuteeee. if its dog i sure like x100 lo. cfm its gonna enter my storeroom. and i was hugging it like a kid from bkk to spore!! LOL!

and then snow city was fun too. cause. it was so cold. we are really crazy peopo cause we did some crazy forfeit like,. taking off the boots and running arnd for girls. while guys are like removing their sweater n boots to do pumpings. EPIC FUN!

so peeps. had my first hangover and its so not fun cause. the next day u feel horrible. got the wan puke dun wan puke feel but kind of trains the alcohol endurance lvl right? ^^ so in conclusion, i will still drink! LOL

last day was some shopping at supermart which is boring. the supermart not v super lo. and then ate ramen. okay first time ate ramen cause kind of dun like ramen lo. luckily not bad and slept a lot, oh well. and it ended. 5days in a blink of an eye T_T

i guess its the fun-nest trip ever prolly bcause its my first trip ever with friends and macam like zhang da niao and really felt different from going overseas with family and lucky we got competent organisers like jo jeff and jb(jesper-funniest guy ever met) so it was fun. sitting on tuk tuk was fun too. best thing learnt was to bargain, heehehehe.

in conclusion, awesome trip with awesome peopo that makes me feel really blessed to be part of wp, to be knowing all of them. altho sometimes i do feel a bit sad. not that i dno where i stand, but sometimes cause jo and eliza were so close. so. abit envious ba. not say they r bad to me. but i do feel inevitably left out. but since i know where i stand. so leave things be lo. luckily still got zk to pei me crap!! muhahahahahahhaa.

and best part of everything i found out was. no wonder i like to hang with wp peopo! coz they are a group of fun peopo with unique individual characteristics that are super considerate to others!!! :DDD

alrightey. time to sleep and tmr's another long day (:

my life

2011-08-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

Right. Today's play was the worst ever. Sucks to the max. So freaking disappointed with myself.

Note to self: you can fucking go eat shit if u continue on playing like this. Kiss the leagues goodbye manz.

Since ytd, I'm not feeling well. Literally. Its like I'm no longer part of ur world. No contacts no nothing. Sometimes I wonder where I stand. What's the point?

Mayb I'm overly possessive.but I nv meant to do anything more than showing u concern and everything. You are part of my life undeniably

I dno how much I can take if this goes on...

I can't find any method to vent it. Sigh

love love

2011-08-21T11:07:00.001+08:00

KEEPING MYSELF HIGH THO IM DAMN SCARED FOR TMR's EXAM

JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUUu

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG

I LOVE MY WHEELY FAMILYYYY

LIKE ALOTTTTTT

LIKE SERIOUSLYYYYYYYY :D

feel warm n touched(:

天啊！

2011-08-20T12:31:00.003+08:00

最终还是忍不住又来到这里抒发情绪

真的很倍感压力因为我想考好这两张纸

但找不到动力

动力啊你跑去哪里了？

真的有点痛苦啊想快快结束

所以一想到结束后的长假和节目就万分兴奋

真是的

脑子总想着玩想着那些有的没得东西

met up with huan ytd and well. we talked alot. its true that she did most of the talking. LOL. but her pattern is like that de what. the chatterbox. cannt believe i managed to sneak into her school. like just went in like nothing happened. then she hugged me like mad. wth. damn cuteee. haha.

entering JC reminds me of sec sch life. reminiscing ah~ its the homely feel and the everywhere i go i see you feel that i dont find in poly life. poly life is so independent. is so ME. everybody is so different and individual. but i feel that im lucky to be able to be part of wp no matter how.

huan mentioned that lower sec life was a really lap sap one for her but i really beg to differ. i remembered how much i loved my life back then. going sch to only to laugh, not to worry about studies. even more exaggerating is that i will even missed that gang of friends when im in holidays. of course things changed in upper sec. its not i dont like my class. but half of the time im worrying about my studies cause its when i start failing my subjects etc. that sucks cause no matter how much i try, its just like that. but i still love 4/2 '10!

and i believed that if i didnt go thru these small steps of life. i wont be what i am now!

so.. yepp. talking to huan makes me want to go into her life and get to know all her friends altho my current friends are as awesome too!! but sometimes i wonder... how much can i hold on? but its another crazy things i did again. travelling all the way to kovan to find her! she better be damn honoured okay! haha

oh well. miss the good old times in RC too. it can nv happen again i guess.

hao de hao de. time to studyyyy. jiayou ah tio! :D

im not sure if i shld let u into my life or build even stronger walls.

DIET!

2011-08-19T14:00:00.002+08:00

REALLY CONSIDERING ON JIAN FEI-ING SOON. esp since got 7 weeks holidays after exams. wheeeeeeeee~ lol

i know that im not suppose to be online but i cant bear to leave my blog dead lehh. and as i count along my business n contract law content.. i got 54 case laws to do n memorise.. OHMYTIANNN )): to think ytd nite i do up some of it alrd. zzz.

recently have been a big twist of event that i panicked. IKR. im known as the rationale and calm type and there i am freaking over the big issue. luckily, snail is there for me. that awesome tiny weeny snail! LOL. and luckily, things sorta revert back to normal.

i think my idol was right about mentioning whatever it is, and sometimes im kind of impressed with the will to fight or the will to perservere cause i think im not that disciplined enough to do it. that accumulates to i've got so much to learn from^^V

i liked how things are developed between us now.thanks for the advice alsooo :D

actually sometimes i wish i could bare my hearts out and write as much as i could thru this blog but unfortunately. its impossible. i know that if i do that. EVERYONE will know everything. and then at some point of time i will regret. coz i cant retract back my words coz i will end up hurting the peopo arnd me and thats the last thing i ever wanna do to anyone^^ so whenever i post or sth. will think a lot one. coz i will post in a way that u all dun understand what im trying to say but eventually i still get to let things out of my heart!! but , im turning to my diaryy again! tonite it shall be! hehe.

mayb some of u all still dunno how much friends meant to me. but i still feel like typing. through out my life. i do admit friends do stand a special place within me. especially my cliques. after all. most of my lives. i've been depending on them. i didnt had parents around me. that doesnt mean i dont love them but its different. aunt and uncle. there's so much they wouldnt understand and im so frigging hell lazy to explain or even expect them to understand. my cousin? WORST. so now u see how much friends mean to me? HAHA

looked through some photos. and i missed my peopo alot. be it for proposals or just for hanging arnd with. altho i've changed. but i still miss them. i mean i've changed that i actually prefers individual one on one outing compared to clique outings. mayb clique is too big to bond no matter how. but i still love them. hoping be able to meet them during the hols.

one week of no school is really keeping me damn happy and mon's test is keeping me all jittery. must.study.altho.its.boring.

see you all after exam week^^

skyscraper?

2011-08-11T22:02:00.003+08:00

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/d/demi_lovato/skyscraper.html ]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

Go run run run I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear yeah
Go run run run yeah it's a long way down
But I'm closer to the clouds up here

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Ohh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

Come to poly and it's like im listening to more of eng songs altho i like chinese and kpop still. haha.

today felt a bit weird.. as in. i cant say i feel empty, more like free? HAHA. cause assignment weeks ended and everything slows down... and well. more time for myself and sleep! hehe. OHYA. KINDA HAPPY CAUSE STUDY SESSION TMR^^

must be mugger pooh ! :D

things have been fairly well except maybe wed's test. pretty sure i screwed it. If only, im strong will-ed enough to perserve and study harder. always everytime ended up this way. don't fail please and don't too border line pass pls. sigh.

recent guilt i did was to make someone cry. i swore it wasnt on purpose and i didnt mean it. didnt even expect it. but well. i think i helped the person to relieve her unhappiness? vent out everything in any case. but lesson learnt, some things that wont work, no point trying. then somebody gonna shoot me, how would u know it wont work if u hadn't tried? kind of lacked the courage to try ba. and since unsure of whats for the future or since u'll guess how the ending is.

also.. since ytd, feel damn happy coz sorted some of my feelings out.. but it seems to waver nowadays. but im pretty sure im the one who tink too much.so yepp. HAHA. remain as status quo!! :DDD

alright.. ever since that fateful night, i felt kind of happy. i really felt that we are closer and enjoying each other's companion more and more! you know what, im holding on to each of u all tightly. cause i wouldnt know what could have happen if you guys are there no more and i dun even dare to tink anything lidat! T_T just enjoy what i have now.. loving all of you all :DDD (one and always that gave me strength! :D)

#forever waiting #forever here.

preciously valuable

2011-08-09T14:28:00.004+08:00

I have been wanting to blog since 1234567890 days ago.. but unfortunately. i always ended up too tired to blog. so phail!

guess there are still certain stuffs that i wanted to vent if off my chest. its such a miracle how ah jing's song can supposedly filled me up when i feel empty or sad. that's where her character and songs charmed me and oh well. really DAMN HAPPY that she's coming in NOV. luckily.. got the holidays and i'd probably work and save up to see her. hehe. talking about holidays made me cant wait for bangkok trip! hahaha. not like i've never went overseas before. The last Genting trip didnt really count cause kor was with us mah. haha.

Wanted to officially announced that invincible tio conquered her assignment week!! the one week almost killed me. yes. only one week and i almost died. actually its two weeks. the preparation week was really tough. chionging all the way. and then the presentation week whereby 4 out 5 of days presentation. hoping that all efforts will pay off!! :D

and so.. i cleverly gave myself a break.. conveniently procrastinating uh. but well.. there's test tomorrow ah. like sian only when its like holiday today.. and honestly speaking.. wanted to study more but yet dun wan to disappoint the rest. uhh.. last time doing such stuff okay. doing things that i dont really wanna do.hehe

these few days have been quite precious as i've been spending my days with wp peopo. felt really comfy around them feel so xi guan being with them too. like thats the natural thing to do. glad that we went to visit jo at her ah ma's wake.its sort of like moral support rite? shld have somehow brighten her day ba. hopefully.

ytd night met-up with Monster, after such a long time. hehe. not that we dun keep in touch often but sometimes meet-up does help? but at times i really dunno how to react. haha. mayb this is what best friend does? dun nid to meet up often etc but when we're together, we just feel comfy and glad that eventually we have each other as companion? (and still cant believe the cai fan robbed my money. sucker!!)

Also, its great to clear up misunderstandings? well, at least things are cleared up and things are set straight. altho cant help but find pity that the time spent was really short. think i wan to sleep more than anything and so scared to tire the other person up. its inevitably to feel that the faith is shaken but after considering so much, its kind of not worth it to lose anything over such issue.

but hey woman, just know that i'll be there whenever the going gets tough. altho im really not good at showing it >_<

lastly. i cant deny the fact that i was offended and minded. and not like i can do anything about it. but hoped that u kept ur promise alright and i'll just hold onto things as tightly as possible. perhaps you're right about not knowing what the future lies for each of us and why not just treasure what i have now? its not like you can control the future and its not like all the promises can be totally fufilled. (that sucks) but just glad that somehow we have each other in a way or another :D

bye bye. time to study for stupid test. Pls let me do well !!! (and you too!)

affairs of heart are pain in ass sometimes.zzz

cos' we're a family

2011-08-03T15:27:00.002+08:00

actually.. i like candid photos alot.. esp this one.. just nice its nice and nobody is blocked!! hahah

right.. i guess it will be the last time i will be talking about how much wp means to me? actually i've long wanted to post about it.. but you know lah hah. busy max.. esp this week.. 2more days before this week is over!! then im gonna declare myself as invincible tio again! muhahahahaah

current place: WP clubroom

current status: LEPAK-ing. (no la. got report to do okay)

just dropping by here to jot down things that i feel like saying out! (:

its shiok to be alone in the wp clubroom, and then time for myself and doing the things i wan. somehow reminded me of the times we shared in RC room.. but well. it was the good old days and im sure alot of things must have changed alrd..

ytd was training.. aft missing sat's trng due to projects.. always felt weird when i pon trngs.. nvm. so yjj joined! he's kind of planning to quit badminton coz he said it was sianz and keep doing the same whole thing. and well. it felt different from sec sch days.. so of course i will ask him how was trng aft trng. like duh.. guessed what he say?(:

well.. he said that they're a bunch of nice peopo and its only first day of trng and he said there's the homely feeling. jia de gan jue.. I FINALLY FOUND THE TERM TO DESCRIBE THEM LO. yupp. its the jia de gan jue. mayb thats why its keeping me in, drawing me in. and of course in addition its a sports that i like. ^^

the world is so big. its not easy to find somebody that u like and the person to like u back. its even harder to find friends that you can really mix and blend along well esp in poly. so im just getting more and more grateful to knowing them and the very fact that im part of them :D

so recently i was bothered by the phone call from my mum.. until when i finally thought it through.. so the bridge will just straighten when i wan to cross it!! hopefully. thanks to some of them who gave me strength and im so so so glad that fats felt better alrd. it was worrying. well. she asked me not to worry. HOW CAN LAH -.-

hopefully for this week.all's well ends well!! and leaving earlier for tonight's trng coz tmr got IS presentation. HATE IS TO THE MAX LAHHH. zzz

okay, time to do some work. like sian only T_T

brave new world

2011-07-27T15:12:00.003+08:00

really sorry about the very late updates.. recently have really been busy. especially last week... i chiong-ed my off campus learning, finished the 16h.. felt so invincible that im so proud of myself. i did thought that im actually the type that cant bear hardship, but i guess facts proved me wronggg. heheehehe. im just plain lazy at times i guess..

im getting kind of scared lately. cause i loved wp-mates so much that i feel im so attached to them.. whenever im in school. i'll just think of hanging out with them.. suckish feeling i swear. because i owned them then now im scared of losing them ):

i know i wont know what future holds so.. i shld stop thinking so much!!

had a HT HT talk, a mini one with ET girl.. it is interesting to know the deepest of the person, i mean sometimes they just surprised you! and im really touched with the promise she gave.. cause actually. nobody knows what happen in the future, but a promise to me is a reassuring thing. at the very least, keeps me from thinking too much. but YAY. honestly, first time telling so many things to my poly friend!!! ZOMG. lol

so now a bit cannt wait for bangkok trip ah.. hahaha. and enjoying my moments(like trying to know them better hopefully)

amazing that how much strength they gave me..

let's talk about my assignments. the irritating parts. basically as i check my workload.. i realised to my horror that next week

4projects due, which means 4days of formal presentation (huimin and jacq, finally using ur bag! LOL)
two self reflections(off campus) to do
two e-learning assignments to do
IS test this thursday
Sbc presentation this friday

Probably something good about this week is the usual training and not much of lessons! but piles of projects. like sian only

somewhere in the middle of last week, i received a very sweet gift..

belated birthday gift!(:

THANKS GIRL ^^V been going round showing off to peopo lo. ROFLOL.

having another WP event on friday!!

i do feel a little sad looking at HPC blog okay. cause its dead. but of course i understand everyone is busy but still.. nvm lo. hahahaah. kind of expected isnt it? lol.

having sore throat + cough now. LIKE SIAN ONLY-.-

short lived happiness

2011-07-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder long can the happiness last..

let me zi lian a bit and put this photo okay! cause i think its nice. lol. cool skateboard~~~ but i dun dare use except like roll few times at kitchen. lol

sidetrack abit, today weather damn hot. i think really max endurance le can! nap til kena woken up by the heat!! and im procrastinating. can do my IS stuffs but felt like its a waste of time. i swear IS sucks to the max. to think i got 3 years to endure that T_T

see la, i wanted to post quite a lot of things but forgot. lol. nvm, slowly think will have de^^

recently. quite happy with life ah. ok. actually is just ytd and the day before ytd, some funny and happy stuffs happened that i cant stop smiling to myself. like a retard only lahh, piang eh. but nvm. shall indulge myself in this silly-ness. its a very rare thing.

few days ago, was kind of affected by my friend's " be glad that they're part of your life" that friend is none other than eliza!! lol. the funny expressive girl. how to say. i actually hated come and go friends, if i have such friends, might as well dun have... but her tat sentence had the impact on me. and in poly, its inevitable right? i mean how long do u think u can hold on to a friendship or even someone? thats her way of self comfort. kind of cool. but i dno if its for me. but actually, thinking in that way makes me feel happier in a way. at least.

urgh, nvm. i just wanna vent. lol

so got important thing to announce, im going bangkok on 28 aug to 1sept.kind of excited, its lik officially going overseas with friends la!! altho last time go genting with kor before. LOL. some more hengling still intro me go theme park. OMG. gonna scream my lungs out!! cant wait!

shall talk abit abt ytd's trng, i think got SOME improvements, not alot but at least there's improvements. so gonna improve more and more. really think its very fun CCA with fun peopo! anyw my legs alot injuries like blue black dno from where! hahaha.

i now think that its a good thing not to anyhow advertise my blog, den poly peopo cannt see! den i can type as much as i wan! u know now twitter got few poly peeps alrd. a bit dangerous. but oh well. haha. twitter still can accept. cause its a platform for me to vent so far, and of course here!

and wanna thank snail for comforting me when im too overly sensitive. it can get really cranky and crazy if such things happen. cause i feel like im losing control of myself. but true that there's no point to rush things. so let nature take its course ba!^^

somehow im actually thankful to be able to meet you guys! trust me. anyway getting late alrd. gotta sleep. tmr full day sch! nites!! and love you guys lots! and of course fats and snail! :D

suppose to look forward to weekends but sunday working, so i feel kinda sian-ed now. SAD LIFE! T_T

strength

2011-07-06T22:48:00.001+08:00

It's always when times fly like this fast that I'm scared of. I still need the strength to hold on. How could I go on ?

mistakes

2011-07-03T21:57:00.002+08:00

i guess when u cared about someone, you would be concern of the other person's everything? and through this week. i'd probably learn something in the hard way. although its not exactly my fault. but the guilt lingers in me for certain days. i promise i wont let it happen again.

it is how ironic (i remb its not ionic -.-) that how close we used to be and now im past caring about you. even asking you for lunch seems to be a tough choice to make, you totally brushed past my mind. for the fact that i didnt want anymore late replies from you. if it was that person, would it be the same case? i dont want to be the one trying stupidly i guess. i feel so distant from you now. where are you?

this week also got back tests results. actually disappointed with myself. i thought i could scored better. but i actually got back mostly Cs and Ds. and that sucks. exams i will mug hard. it is a must!

productive day today in a sense that i did friends birthday cards. mass production. now only left with bryan's. well its belated cards la. upcoming one haven find day do yet and most importanly, read my long lost comics. how long ago was that i haven been reading comics? i remembered i loved reading them during p5-sec3 period. missed those days.

this week felt kind of bad to my aunt also. home late almost everyday and nv dinner at home. i really dun wanna treat my house as a rented apartment/hotel. as much as i dun wanna stay at home sometimes. lol. and aunt just told me sad news also. she say cannt custom-made my cake. so on tues will buy on the spot. wahhh. no special yummy cake, but nvm. haha.

the upcoming week is so. tiring, which i dont really like? but no choice! and actually in singapore. if u have no friends and no programmes= boring lifeeee.
and and and today i saw a maid kissing one bangla guy. bf? i think more like kena toyed at lo. i mean, how can they last, right?

okayyy. aunt cooked macaroni, am gonna eat. byeeeee. please allow sick cat to eat some sinful supper for once XD

fangirl mode: going out with my idol on thues was awesomeeeeee . ROFLOL. despite the fatal aftermath.hehe

Conclusion

2011-06-29T10:54:00.002+08:00

Okay.. I take back my words.. Am still not very happy in poly except during trainings D:

expression

2011-06-28T23:52:00.002+08:00

i guess crying is a form of expression, and somehow after crying, u'll grow stronger. im sure.. so jiayou xiao snail! im here for you! :D

im grumbling again i know. but wts my charger spoilt? for no freaking reason? kind of du lan actually. make me spend EXTRA money when im poor enough ):

suddenly find myself very fortunate. i think joining the cca was really a correct choice. there i meet awesome peopo, get to see 'shuaiz ge' or at least bio la. then get to learn n interact with peopo. in addition, doing community service. i nv thot it was much of a big deal, really. helping another person is like a very natural kind of thing? to me la.

all in all, i'd probably glad that im quite adapted to poly's life(:

like today. all of them were so cute. sending mass sms to one person. it was really sweet and cute. altho is spamming but cuteeeeeee. and its these kind of peopo that can tink of these kind of ideas.

altho im affected by the phraise 'need to show them some love, then they will come back what' thats so.. full of motive, so not from within. i wonder if all of them does things that way. but i choose to believe they're not that way (:

one told me that if i socialise more. mix with more peopo. i'll enjoy poly life. but i guess the something thats holding me back is that i dun nid excessive peopo entering and leaving my life as and when they like, it sucks, really. when eventually you found out that the friendship or whatever ship u fostering will just end at the end of the day. without much of a way of salvage. yet i cant do anything except waiting for time to creep away and eventually gone again when its time. sigghhh ):

okay usually emo tis way on sat night bus journey home alone. it comes every week without fail. lol.

but i guess no point thinking so much. cause its all pre-arranged. whats meant to be, will just be.

little confession of mine. i actually loved listening to radio, playing it out loud to fill up the whole house. for now, its filling my room, and 88.3fm is awesome. the mix of chinese and eng songs. i always feel that doing this is very romantic thing! lol. okay thats lame. but i really like. and my uncle added a table lamp for my room.. all the more romantic! hehe.

okay nites peeps! (:

ps: recently learned how to use bump apps. its fun de lo!! :D

loserrrr

2011-06-26T14:36:00.003+08:00

im glad that no matter how, wheelpower always cheers me up!:D

i always hate it when my uncle becomes unreasonable.
he always comment "we treat u as part of family but you treat us as tenants"
sometimes i wish i could shout back " HAVE YOU TRIED TO UNDERSTAND ME?!"

but im fine now. just will want to whine and complain to my closed ones (:

Recently brought a friend to WP training. which was ultimate fun. in between matches. i could feel the strong trust that we had. even in the most simplest movement. but im glad you enjoyed urself and thanks for going training with meeeeee!

i used to write diary alot. but ever since i come to poly. it sorta died down. what to do when u everyday face comp? lol. as usual the procrastination to study etc. the self disciplined that you once have. all gone. which well. typing my assignment for like going 1 hour. such a simple task but it's a pain in ass.

and just ytd nite. i conferred someone as my idol. heehee. snail says i sound like a fangirl upon mentioning about her. but what to do! hahahaha. its liek that de what. hahahaha. i think i kind of admired the way she do things. the way how superficial she looked but actually deep down within she has so much more better traits and character. oh, she's also very nice and friendly. hahahaah.

i believe that fate plays an amazing role in whatever im doing now. i will be better somehowwwwww, i hope :D

FACE TIMING WITH SNAIL IS (L) altho she always like act cute in front of the self cam-.-

school starts tomorrowwwww D:
}"?>!%$)++!^$(_!

自我良好

2011-06-21T00:54:00.002+08:00

再次忍不住终究用中文来打部落格
我想我生命不能没有华文吧它根深蒂固地印在我的生活里

好像很多东西要写但不知从何说起
算了吧
其实我想说世界很不公平
怎么能这样对我呢我想我有我的权利
我想其实我没有
办不到狠心地不理睬任何人
这是巨蟹座的毛病吗？
就是做不到嘛尽管自己不好受

说些开心的我想开始写作
但是又很懒惰-.-

我应该保持乐观的心态真的
几天前的难过好像云销魂散
妙
我也不懂为什么

很多次我很想打部落格但想了想
还是算了有些事说了怕伤到他人
所以别说最好

剩下一个礼拜的假期不要啊~
怎么怎么快就要结束了
我还有101 事情要做欠打的
有小说要读有漫画要读
做工功课
没完没了!

期待明天尤其拜三
终于要聚在一起了呵呵
还有拜五！

打了那么多字
也不懂自己在打什么
失败啊~~~~
囧！！！

PS 嘴巴痒了，侯慧敏！几时去唱K啊~? :D

never letting go?

2011-06-14T22:25:00.004+08:00

ALRIGHT.. am actually waiting for jo's pic to be uploaded which is = dunno when.

just came back from huan's birthday celebration and am seriously very chui now. also waiting for hengling to upload pics for today..

so for this week, i went for camp ytd and today.. hell it was funnn.. basically its a leadership camp whereby all the different CCAs leaders come together.. we are under the community service cluster.. so other CCAs include rotaract club, leo club, HI(hearing impaired) club, Boy's brigade primitives(?), mentoring club, RCH and us-WP.. so of course we were separated into different groups where i meet alot of other nice peopo? Well. the tcher in charge is actually very funnyy and engaging.. lol. like he's like the funnest tcher i've ever seen, HE ACTUALLY SAID MY HAND SHORT WHEN I MISSED BLOCKING THE BALL HE PASSED!! lol!

okay so whats so nice about our peopo is.. the whole community service cluster is like all nice peopo? i mean somehow they have passion in whatever they're doing and thats why they are there? awesomeeeee...! haha.

so i believe the main highlight of the camp is the the BUNK!! WAHLAU GOT COCKROACHHH ONEEE..! then one brave girl killed it for us. lol. guys bunk also got cockroachh.. damn the old cca clubhouse and we bathed in the alumni clubhouse.. super atas sia. haha.

so im suppose to end at 4pm but i book out at 12pm den go find ASC for huan's bdae celeb, can only say chui max cause all of us like so tired.. but.. i just love the times spent tgt... :D

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY HUANNNN~ !

alright.. tmr got wheelpower meeting and trng.. sleeping like soon! byeee
(ohya.. self-reminder, next post blog abt jo! hahaha)

hello fats currently missing you alot now.. i've got so much much much to say to you but we've not been updating each other ): i wanted to actually think of hows us.. i mean we're so busy in our world.. but how could i bear to let go? right? our fatship is so much more than special(:

we'll update each other soon again right? so i'll wait for you til we can finally meet up!! by then we must take our polaroid le ok. asshole XDD

and i dun tink u will b reading this la! hahah.

fate

2011-06-09T18:11:00.001+08:00

大包小包女人！谢谢你今天陪我吃午餐(:

what do i want?

2011-05-30T00:27:00.004+08:00

Dear Blog, sorry for neglecting you. HAHA.

alright, back to blogging. actually wanna blog on sunday. but nvm.. quite busy actually. like ever since come back from ah ma's funeral, no time to blog. this week 2 projects due. tomorrow n friday need formal wear. then next week common tests. fyi, everyday go back sch for the tests, all 5 modules JUST nice. zzz. anyw heng is only 2 modules examinable (:

so many many many many many things happened of course recent two most memorable one wil be mendi's 17th birthday and the very long ago wheelpower event at St gabriels. FUN :D

i'll talk about them laterrrr. so actually i wasn't feeling too happy on sat night. actually. im kind of easily affected. nvm. cause overheard seniors saying about leaving WP.. something about them being in year3s so will kinda get busy etc. Then it's like IM SAD LA. i mean, seniors are fun to play with during trng? this is kind of sucks actually. since pri sch, alrd like that. well cause i tend to mix with other batch mates. (cause same age as me ma) sec sch also like that. now also lidat. so a bit sad lo. but well, it wont affect me for long and aft jotting it down. feel better le lo.(anyw no time feel sad also, so many assignments due, still need study)

so today site visit.. (wake up at 6am u know damn sian when suppose wake up at 9am)to SIT of TP. basically ts like culinary school of america? like university lo. but its like university. cool is they actually purposely accept poly students n working adults, compared to a levels students. pretty impressed with the students cutting the fish etc. i like to eat, like to cook(but cook skills CMI) haha. at times i do feel quite lost. cause peopo will ask, what course im in, then i will say. next they will ask if i have alot of interest in it. actually, no leh. so its kind of sad. i cant even say its something that i really like or compassionate about. but all i definitely know is the career prospects in future looks pretty good and i think slowly, im going to like it (:

school's going 2months.. so far everything is ok. cause so many things to do la. sianz. and im glad that i really joined wheelpower(WP) well, helpedme de-stress. im not exactly very good in it. but most important is i enjoy it. its been quite some time since i enjoyed myself(usually moan and whine and scold) some more seniors all so fun and nice one. hahaha. its also something that keeps me looking forward to school . finally a wise choice. hhaaha. well, not that my classmates are not great. its just, i guess everything takes time? somehow the frequency still dont really hit leh. comapred to WP peopo. but well. again, slowly ba. hopefully everything turns out fine.

so gonna talk about mendi's birthday surprise!

Hello girl, please remember that HPC always love you :D

basically, not gonna get all so long winded and talk about the whole thing. gonna summarise and generalise it. hehe. anyway most fun part is forming all the word at the carpark opp her house. so damn bloody scared that she spot us. then we were hiding all around, like mice. hehe.

then appeared at her house! she cried like water tappp. haha. shiok ah.. and how dare she rebutt me!! still say "if i dun cry, u all going to say me" KIAMPA TO THE MAX!!

so stayed over at her house, we chatted like 3am plus then sleep. haha. very chui for the day. but enjoyed myself. and mendi must be super touched can. and credits to dajie. for organising , xin ku le (:

anyw i was thinking there's 7 of us.. the other 4 the birthday surprise.. bu jiu no more ideas?? LOL. deadmeat. haha.

ohyea. i cut my hair.. short! haha. then yao and jacq say.. previous hair nicer.. nvm. im gonna keep long next round!(i hope, lol)

im lazy to blog about st gabs events and since its over so long alrrdddd. just know that i enjoyed myself can alrdddd! joker of the day was isaac and zhou te lo. lol. and photographer aida, xin ku le! (:

btw i signed up for WP sub comm! hehe. join for fun!

HAPPY FACES :D

ciaos!

missing

2011-05-17T22:25:00.001+08:00

HI PEOPOOOOOOOOO

IM BACK!!

okay now i feel lost, dunno what to do for sch work

then i feel so long nv touch lappy

then now i dunno what im pissed or even to be pissed about.

i think im just tired. after bathe going to sleep!!

shall be good and post on hpc blog(:

greatest granny

2011-05-12T00:57:00.004+08:00

Hi ALL

i know. i neglected this space for quite some time. but well. im busy? yea! HPC 5k run was quite okay. except that im quite disappointed with myself. i thought i could run much better than that. seriously. and well. too nua alrd. and for more info. please read HPC blog sat's post. haahha.

i guess now so far its okay? i got 2 projects now which i must by hook by crook finish by tmr. which i think i can! must have faith in myself. before i actually go back to indo. and my class are really funny peopo?

some of the guys like to actually jump when in lifts. then girls in my class. esp zuoen and shareping will like scream in the lift. can u imagine the state of my eardrums? yarla.

and then wheelpower for 2days.. was awesomeeee. okay. i feel much happier in a sports cca lo. and sweat it out! feeling is great! some more basketball!!! big love u know. and today's trng more hardcore. i thought they will start on drills or something but not yet. instead today we played at UWC at dover there. there really got handicapped players playing. and they played with us. which is super funnnnn.

and yea i went to find vivian and teoh at SP for early dinner, which felt good. like aft some time then see them? okay mayb not some time. just saw vi on sat. ok, just for teoh then, lol. aft entering sp campus.. i felt glad that im in np. i dunno why la hor. just the feel lo. and si vi made me wait.. and wait.. then made me late for trng at sch. lol. and i saw sherlyn!! finally aft so long. so the short SP trip not too bad, lol and teoh whining at track pants is epic. haha

but one big prob is i have no strength when shooting as im sitting down. senior asked me to practise shooting without jumping.. so can i once again emphasize that this is really not an easy sports as it seems? hehe. but me likeyyyy, most importantly. peopo there are nice.. so trng i would probably go on every tues and wed. and then.. thurs GG. my IS lesson at 8am T_T

currently having severe muscle ache. but shiok ah!!

then.. let's talk abt why im going back indo.. is cause my ah ma passed away.. its kinda shocking when i heard it from my cousin.. until i broke the news to my uncle den he cried.. i thhen cried.. i dunno if im still close to this ah ma. but all i remembered was she was there when im young, cooking those dinner n food for us on weekends. then until i came to singapore.. my memory of her kinda stopped there?

but yea. of course im still sad. probably a pity that i didnt get to see her last face.. i still remembered when my ah kong died.. i was still v young (p4) then all i did at the funeral was crying.. really. and actually im closer to my ah kong than my ah ma. ah kong always play with me last time.. )):

its kinda cliche to say about how u shld cherish one another before one dies or sth. but i really feel it strongly that how life seems so unpredictable. my cousin said one moment my ah ma was still joking and talking and suddenly another moment she was sent to hospital due to her stomach cramp. and subsequently, she just left us like that..

isnt all this indicates that one should be thankful of one another? i feel it la. thats why there's this project hug thingy that me and mei wen talking about!! can i like whenevver i meet snail, fats, pig,HPC, ASC and Dplus den we will give each other one hug? lol. but waliu i will be like too shy to ask de lo D;

but then again i hope it works. okay, feels weird to think of hugging shihui and kewei. AIYA SUA LA. lol.

from this moment, i'll learn to be more appreciative of what i have now(altho i always complain one) and live life to the fullest(like join funny funny activities but not damaging my future GPA record!)

so guys, lets be more appreciative ok? you will not know when's the next moment i kena knocked down by car thenn say bye bye to the world right? and hope my ah ma and ah gong can find each other in another world, and blessing us (:

why compromise when you can give it your best shot- self reminder.

be a better and stronger person

2011-05-04T20:14:00.004+08:00

i will just smile and feels happy inside whenever i see them. it just works when im feeling down. just by looking at them. kwonnie looked so shuaiz qi in that motorbike whilst the last pic is like so sweet. see his arms on her shoulder^^ then ga in feeding him food. SWEET :D

school was okay. am very happy cause it ended at like 12pm. so went to pei shareping(classmate) actually didnt want to. but like v bad, so went watch movies. while she wait for her dearest amanda goh. amanda then got release early and come find us. i feel SUPER awkward seeing her. and except saying HI. totally dunno what to say -.-

so i escaped to find yao. then went to jurong point to watch THOR. quite funny. and cfm got part2! yao was cringing to one side. then i ask her what happen. she say the ending v shit. yao so cute lo. so train-ed back to dover and took 74. make full use of bus concession!lol.

anyw movie-ing tday. yao brought her china friend along. actually i realised yao's friends all quite nice one. and i did ask yao once and she too agreed that whenever we hang out tgt in poly.. reminds us of our lives during lower sec. haha.

so today in overall was not bad, except that i ka pook chicken rice into the cinema. which is eating in the dark.. next time shall b smarter n smuggle bread la. easier to eat at least. lol.

i wanted to blog ytd but tired.. cause training for wheelpower club! this is actually sth that i looked forward to! peopo there are nice. and my heart seems to go alive when i see the bball court. something which i hadnt feel for quite some time.. so I (L) WHEELPOWER!

and secretly tell u all.. i v cheapo one. i was actually tempted by the free jerseys and free jacket if managed to get into sch team which i think i will la. lol. i got super big confidence dunno from where. then its also like community service u know. when u play with handicaps. like one cca kills two purpose.

also thru ytd trng. i realised how thankful i was for having a well abled body.. when playing captain ball tat time got the urge to chase aft the ball u know but realise i cannt! cause bound to wheelchair... can u imagine those peopo that are in the same shoes too? D:

so cause of the rain.. trng ended early.. but i wan train longer la.. and senior told us got PT?! which is i didnt think have? not that i dun like or super like PT. but as a normal human being. if no PT bu jiu shuangz lo? lol. some more is a super muscular senior leading us for PT.. hmm. hopefully by next week.. i will attend more trainings (:

did i mention that my class is actually got a few sub clique that type? which is.. now my clique got 4girls.. which is one of them ask me.. why i never join the bigger gang of girls which are quieter ones.. then i say actually i come poly plans to lead a loner life?then the girl(trina) like say.. OKAY LO. WE LEAVE NOW.. in the lift. which is they cant la. but in truth i actually kinda stuck w shareping? LOL. i dun tink any of poly friends read this. haha. so lidat lo. and so my clique 4girls rite. me shareping trina n yusiang. yusiang today wore a high waist shorts with a very short shirt. and i literally went to ask her.. did u steal ur little sister's clothes? ROFLOL.

but i was kidding la! lol. and i feel damn sian that need to tie hair for next week's practical for housekeeping liao. in fact,tmr staying back to clean up loft. ta ma de housekeeping. why cant i seem to get out of sai kang? :x (last time RC got u'know)

i hope that my life wont get too mundane and im excited for wheelpower trng! and this sat's run! coz got HPC !:D

PS: MY BLOODTYPE IS A+! FINALLY KNOW!

and music's inevitably part of my life now!(:

steamin' steamboat

2011-05-02T00:12:00.002+08:00

i sense the atmosphere of emo-ness in the air..

4/2's never been this awesome... cheered me up at the aftn part of the day. i thot i'd get to play bowling and pool with kor and gang today but ended up i came a little too late and pei-ed him shopping at NEX at the later part before joining class for steamboat..

it was great fun and watsoever. im beginning to cherish more and more of such gathering. vanny even thot of having chalet again etc. its cool and fun.. i guess for the first year? not tat i dun have the confidence.. but soon enuff .. when we get real busy etc... all these will lessen. but most importantly is being happy right at that moment! :D

since snail wanted me to blog something here.. i kind of agree of what she's saying. distancing myself from other peopo in poly. my whole mindset was. i dun nid to know anymore other friends and then bothering about them.. i'd rather treat them as classmates, project mates. and good enough..

recently also coz of my kor. i began to wonder if being sensitive is a good thing or bad. sometimes its just you urself can be so sensitive that things cant fix back to how it was. or u start thinking too much of ur own til things cant get fixed. mayb im one of the pointless sensitive peopo too ):

okay.. kinda tired now actually.. so shld have an early night, happy that tmr is my nua-ing day!

hate the fact that each time there's a third person to tell me whats going on in ur life. i know that u may not even read this. but i kinda dunno what's wrong. kinda dunno how to fix things back to it was. was tat even anything to be fixed? this sucks manz. hard for me to feel the importance i had in ur life D:

good enough

2011-04-30T23:31:00.004+08:00

went to watch this movies with rochelle.

overall its not as good as the one i watched. the one with chen hsiao dong. i think the original oldest one was with chen guo rong. so rate tis 3 out of 5

liu yi fei looked real pretty inside! as usual gu tian le's acting is good! just that the ning cai chen so not shuaiz and the ending is weird? i find the whole show weird.so i felt like i wasted my frigging money until.. when i watched nightmare at elm street with roro at her house. ok. the whole point was the show was about killings. lol, super violent and endless killings. but starting watch i alrd chua tio! lol. subsequent jiu no le lo.

cannt imagine if really going to watch scream4 with mei wen >.<

sidetrack a bit.. you all should listen to justin bieber's down to earth.okay not that i like him or obsessed with him. just neutral. its a nice song la. i hear songs of different languages and genres. but must be nice! :D

so i guess music's kinda part of my life now? and tmr feel like exercising too! :D

so i wanted to say that it felt quite good again going out with familiar peopo. enjoying stuffs while we do tgt.. with roro is mostly talk la. we can talk alot! lol. and tmr class outing. 4/2 recently crazily hiong siol. lol. keep outing-.- nvm.. cause i tink next time wan outing will damn hard.hah

anyw today im street smart too. actually took buses from orchard to yishun. hehe, concession rite. must make full use of it(Y)

so i wanted to say about.. the main thing. is about being in different school. it didnt actually bug me alot but it set me thinking.. for once? i used to think that being in different schools(for me poly la) is no of a big deal for it helps to tighten the bond of peopo's cause both will have to make an effort to meet up and etc. plus seeing each other everyday may just create frictions.

but its sort of like if in same sch can take up same cca? can go home tgt? can meet up easier.. sometimes even with peopo of the same sch different course alrd so hard to meet up.. whats more with diff sch and diff course? thats how big poly is. how bad reality is.

i guess as years gone by. the dependency on friends for me increases. i don't really know if its a good thing or bad. but whatever it is. just live with it? if not what? do die meh. roflol. something to learn and take note of i guess. i think i will feel sucky again if the drifting thing gonna take place like again and again. macam vicious cycle. sigghhhhh

but right, no good for me to ponder so much. that's life manz. and i hope that things will remain as what it is or change for the better. is that even possible? sometimes i do need the feel of being appreaciated too. sometimes.

i wanted to say about something i leant. its like there's this wound on my hand that finally for once i decided not to scratch it off when its clot hardens.. soon enough.. the clot faded, but guess what? there's scar there. the same place on the wound. perhaps for every little mistake or hurt we inflict on peopo. no matter how much you wish to amend, the scar is forever there. for. what's done cannt be undone. the feeling's different too.

my snail mail

2011-04-27T22:04:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was tiring. to end my wheelpower club orientation at nearing 10pm. it's like reach home alrd 11pm. check MEL for homework then jiu nitey nites le.

so. i think im joining wheelpower! i like the peopo there and actually. it's not abt cursing yourself. its like community service. and im joining it as sports also. so hopefully i will enjoy my time there. kill 2 birds with one stone. plus the wheelchair is fun to play with!

so apparantly. i slept at ytd's lecture. during the 10min break. really tired. but its like the lecturer super boring. now got 2 lecturer that's super boring alrd. which is business and security mgmt and event and proj mgmt. but eat sweets help i guess.

DAMN SIANZ TMR STARTS AT 8AM T_T

so.. school has been so-so. i really think i'll be loner la. cause if im loner. i will be able to concentrate more on studies? lol. and definitely more at ease with sec sch friends than poly friends. feel it again when i saw dajie today at makan place. i ji tao go hug her lo. while poly friends is like wave hi and go bye bye. next time see all sec sch friends must give free hugs! DAEBAK !^^

something to anticipate will be the nike run! hehe. see HPC-ians.

so im officially joining wheelpower club! i likey! :D

ohya. something cool to share..i found out that NP's sch library so cool. can borrow cds, can see DVDs. then i thot only NP got. Shoots. SP also got. tsk. and i ate unhealthy dinner today cause its improper de. sandwich and milk tea. lol. but heck. haha.

hmm.. i guesss thats all for now!

of course not forgetting that part of the post is for the little snail. actually not very little la. QUITE big sized. lol. she was getting all mysterious that im only allowed to read her post at the later of the night. then waliu. make me so touched. ALMOST. cried. but didnt. so here's my replyyy!hehe

actually. im not as great as you think i am. but it's just me? sometimes i tend to do things i don't understand too. and remb. im very blunt one? haha. and making friends in poly. i dunno and don't care de la. 3 years very fast jiu over one.. i once saw my friend posted. posted about how lonely she felt now in poly. how awkward she felt cause she don't have any clique and dunno which clique to join. then one friend commented. 'You don't need fake friends' i was like enlightened. true.. cause i dont need fake friends? haha

but i wont avoid or act dao la if poly friends approach me. but maybe being alone is a good thing too. like can concentrate on studies. like can self reflect. okay. everyday got like 45 min journey to self reflect -.-

so i'll like to thank you for being there for me too. as much as you know. our friendship is a build up case.. not like suddenly very close one. which is good? cause its a progressive thingy. i also liked how things are now. altho SOMETIMES only la. i will miss you suddenly at one part of the day. for i dunno why also-.- (okay. im not very good at this.. don't really know what to say.)

as much as you know. i'll always be there for you for sure. so i will die before you? ROFLOL. cause i will help you to cover the calamities. wow. cheem. lol. so rest assured. cause i wont abandoned you first unless is you dont wan me alrd! LOL!

and take careeeeeeeeeeee! :D

(not a very good post but i tried! lol)

moral of story: all the more i will cherish my pri sch and sec sch friends^^

the effort in it

2011-04-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

Justin bieber's never say never isnt really worth 4/5 starts.. or popcorns you would say it. but in general its not a too bad movie. at least i dont feel cheated or angry after watching the movie.

guess bieber is just.. talented? he actually can play drum,guitar. can dance. at the mere age of 5? its cool yet incredible. i just feel that he's awesome! but haha. im not a belieber!! lol.

met up with fats was. as usual. i think i could get used to that. haha. not too bad rite. actually. im not greedy. just meet ups occasionally like what we do now is enough.. and as expected. polaroid photo never take. tsk.

today was officially first day of school. so. i was late for 15min. IMBAH. hehe. heng first day so never mark absent. HEHE. tomorrow i wont late. SUMPAH! anyw poly feels like new-found freedom?! in a way la. like during lecture, my whole class like just go facebook? like such an auto and united thingy? lol. i saw others from other class watching video.

but you know what? all the more at this kind of situation. i will discipline myself. i dont want ended up regretting not achieving the GPA i wanted. this and that. cause the feeling totally sucks. so when i wan to listen to lecture. i will off or close the lappy :D

i forgot to mention abt something ytd. met up with yao they all. huan said. actually my course. the career prospects not that much. but i beg to differ. and i wanna go university. local uni at least? so it didnt really matter? as for yao. she said that go poly need to learn a skill. but my course is a knowledge. seriously. i know. but i don't think my course is TAT bad? i mean mayb urs really good but not my interest? (and i did tink of decorating my future room like hotel style. lol) but im really slowly building up interest in the course! and i didnt rebutt them on the spot cause i dun feel the need to and i dunno what to say too. haha

cancerians are like that. they can dont care abt what the rest say of them but when its peopo that they're close with. they will really mind a lot. just like when the peopo not close with them joked about them, cancerians will get angry but if the person is they close with. they wont get angry. i know.. weird cancerians..

so.. i learned from my advisor that part timers are called CASUAL LABOURS. totally sound damn cheapo.. and i need to fufill a 16h off campus experience for my course.. which means work! haha. im waiting for when im settling down for poly alrd. then im going to work.. mayb as bartender? ^^

for today only. I LOVE YOU, SNAIL <3

ps: some bieber's songs are nice! lol

what's so good

2011-04-24T23:53:00.002+08:00

Hi you there don't emo on your blog! we have to move on i guess? (wait til i find a new nickname for you! but im sure you know who you are!)

Met up with ASC today, thats the main highlight of the post. despite it was a short 3h meet up. went to eat dinner at toa pah yoh with them. wing need to leave earlier. but. its the effort that matters. and its enough(:

i guess seeing huan was the most relieving feeling. hearing wing's laughter sounds so familiar. all these are really good. period. (huan's face forever so small) so updated each other! i guess the funny thing was didnt feel like i missed them tons compared to the last time we met during the holidays. but still.. loved to see them again! :D

wanted to take polaroid with them.. but. cannt and no chance? like call who help us take? so.. when tmr meet up with fats and want take polaroid with her. who will help us take siol?._.

everything will be fine, i guess.

warm hearted

2011-04-23T14:39:00.001+08:00

met up with vi jacq and min yesterday.. it felt like AWESOME. especially after having a week of orientation with unknown peopo. i don't know how to put into words but perhaps its just true i guess.. about hundreds of peopo telling me about how secondary school friends lasts the most.

i guess i just need some more time ba, it can be quite funny to hear each and everyone's ordeal when meeting their new friends.. especially on how they were treated. haha. btw, ytd is still the usual min that talked the most -.-

also! went to play pool at amk central. i didnt know there's like pool there? next time can go there play with ah huan they all!! but of course need to pay la. condo de then no need.

yesterday's met up definitely gave me strength to go on! not like im dying or anything. but it just gives me stronger reasons to hold onto things i guess? (:

post orientation

2011-04-21T23:22:00.002+08:00

HELLO..

enough of complaining about the orientation.. cause it ended!! :DDD

despite everything.. i still think that planning it is not an easy task so i do thank the planning comms for organising the whole orientation! haha. i did have my share of fun watching the SLs zi high during the green activities... haha.

so not much comments abt the orientation except that.. im glad tomorrow's no school! and tomorrow is meet up day! hehe. and school gonna start really soon, prepare for the stress manz.

aft nua-ing in the aftn whether to go for glam night. i ended up going. its actually similar to clubbing nite la. and whether i like it or not. i still dunno too. i mean i dun like blasting songs in any way and songs thats repetitive. cause super irritating.. but when DJ played a song that im familiar with. it can get real fun.. but im still a guai kia okay!

today bryan picked dajie up at NP. so sweet uh! haha. managed to chat with him for a while too. or not he so ke lian waiting outside alone. see! im a nice good friend ok! (dun tink he reads this-.-)

and as why im so active in blogging is cause someone started re-blogging again! so we will liek read each other blog. hmm. she dun wan say out her blog la.. i think must think of more rare nickname for her! wakakakakakaka XD

okay. i ran out of ideas to blog. anyww when the DJ played beautiful monster. my mind auto flash mei wen. ROFLOL.and girl ah. take care of urself la! :DDD

jar of hearts

2011-04-20T22:23:00.003+08:00

currently.. im sorta addicted to jar of hearts by christina perri and perfect by hedley.. don't ask me why. i think its nice. i sorta liked to listen to those not so well known singers. and well. the lyrics are meaningful. i also listened to p!nk's songs. haha.

yes yes. im like turning ang moh pai, but no im a chinese.

finally today, not feeling as lethargic as these two days. hence decided to blog. so far orientation is. NO GOOD. i missed AMKSS orientation's. even when i was sec1, it was fun. when i was OGL. it was more fun. i will just like complain about how lousy the planning comms are. releasing us never on time. make us wait like some retard for about 30min everyday in between the programmes. being in an EXCO also made me understand some planning skills. not that i wanna show off but seriously. first day of orientation and student leader asks u to contribute if you have any bonding games?!

bad impression. GG and i left ealier on monday. hehe, shiok. btw had amazing race too. TOTALLY for sec sch now amazing race.

second day wasnt that good too. there's the waiting part. and some talks. best is we were given 2h to come up with a performance for BE (building and environmental div-my sch) and some over run stuffs. so we end up with 1 h only. so of course we cannt come up w sth good la. so. my girl student leader cried. thats so .. unexpected.. i think she's stressed la. she's nice.. just that she cried. then the vice president of BE come talk to our class.. making it as if its our fault..hmm.. today was 45 min late for dismissal

today met at 8am. discuss abt performance. actually. we did nth during that extra one hour-.- my sleep T_T but well. the BE's got talent postponed to tmr. which is. expected for me. i bet other class couldnt think much for their performance too.

today was some industrial tour at RWS. omg. i think hard rock hotel is so freaking cool. its like i like!! there's pub gym and etc in as the facilities.. and peopo working there can dye and have fanciful hairtyle. guess slowly.. i will build interest in my course ^^

btw my course covers floral arrangement too. thats like part of housekeeping. housekeeping is -.- to me. lol. but can de la. treat it as training lo. which is sekali i can make my room into like some hotel^^ HEHEHEHHEH. ohya. one of my course criteria is need 16hours of work in f&b (part time) i think vivian totally dun nid worry abt this fuffillment lo. tsk-.-

so today late dismiss for 40min.. and i wanted to go dance for fun (its dance competition for school arnd ngee ann poly. so means all the sch's need to perform la) but there's only 96 tickets. extra peopo need to go lecture theatre.. but its like. isnt it live atmosphere the best? main is to cheer for my student leaders and then i will be banished to watching projector?

so.. i left and went home taking 74e. back in less than an h time. hehehehehe. okay. i must keep some of my ideas to blog. coz later HPC blog nth to blog about! hahahahah

fills me up

2011-04-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

my latest likey !^^ eunjung and jangwoo! hehe

actually.. im okay alrd! apologies for the previous emo posts... but i need an avenue to straight my thinkings out. sometimes its not i dun wanna say. its i dunno how to put it across and mayb i can do it by myself .. by sorting it out.. so yeappp.

recently miss ah jing.. she MIA some time alrd. the latest EP and book of her to me more liek scam.. its like the company just wanna earn and dig money from us... the fans! zzz T_T also.. recently saw kwonnie's photo.. he looked buff manz! hehe. shits. miss adams tons T_T

wondering when is brown eyed girls comeback....

so on another note, i realised that exercise helps.. helps me to feel better.. like i will feel 'reborn' in a way after exercising lo. hehe. then my mood will like better!! so ftw to exercise!

okay. now i wonder what cca to take when sch starts.. lol

情绪化

2011-04-16T01:37:00.002+08:00

此刻的我竟然睡不着。。。

其实有点累
好像不懂在追求什么
忽冷忽热
真的难受
可能你忙或许什么的
但我想若能更明确地表达
我会好过一点？

不懂怎么开口说
我想不要再主动了
各忙各的
或许会更好一些

优始至终
我永远不离不弃地
在这里等你

good old days

2011-04-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

okay. hate to admit. pearlyn looks cute here! hahahahahah >.<

today was a kind of memory lane trip day for me.. its as if i walked back to the past. i mean its been quite some time since i went back to amkss. its definitely familiar yet strange. same place but different peopo with different environment. nevertheless. i enjoyed myself today. esp ms lim's reaction when i passed her her gift^^

basically. attending CUGC was to pei dajie. and we surprised dajie with vi's appearence. i wonder is she's even surprised la-.- not much of a feeling since im not part of CUGC.. well. definitely feels different watching it now.. used to be part of im preparing it team. lol.

waiting part was quite sianz.. and slacked in RC room.. and i seriously think ms tay likes to suan me like alot.. and i dun remember offending her in any ways. lol. but great to see them! and see mrs chan pregnant and stuffs like really v xin ku >.<

oh. best part was seeing pearlyn they all! i really think that each gathering is always seemingly so precious now.. its like hard to find such feelings when in poly ba. always feel a bit of heartwarming and happy when seeing them! haha, power of HPC? roflol.

ohya.. today de alumni dinner abit chui.. 4/2 de only got jeng ernest and jon tham-.- then its liek 20+ 30+ 40+ yrs old de.. so.. totally so alumni.. ancient .. epic.lol. so glad that i saved up 10bucks^^ even samuel also feels cheated.. HAHA.

okay. time to sleep. i tmr want to jog! :D

决定放弃了，感觉变不同了。我想，只有我吗？

importance

2011-04-14T23:17:00.003+08:00

我想。。。做任何事都要三思而后行

no matter what or where u are... especially in such an advanced technology generation.. really aweseom day today cause i finally did the SOMETHING that i really wanna do since start of holidays! so im happy!! and i used my own money to buy this super cool panasonic cd cum radio player. super big sense of achievements! YOU KNOW! so in a very made to known way in Fb. i spent my time with roro.. its the usual two of us! whereby everytime we go out also wont take pic one! too shy alrd.. but the feeling is comfortable! totally much better than my poly friends. urm. i understand that poly haven even start. LOL.

so main highlight is the blood donation!! it didnt turn out as good as i thot. i thot it wouldnt be so pain la. and thot damn fast one.. so the procedures etc.. there. registration. fillin in forms(they keep asking if i got aids.. the form) i hor, stead also neh stead before can. lol. so the started by checking my haemoglobin count. its 13.4! so off i go. they prick my finger lo. lol.

then finally the main course. yes im nervous la, then they start alrd. poke liao. tell me to squeezze sth every 5sec. starting. woa. numbness. then aft that freaking pain. i can feel the machine sucking my blood. the helper said my face damn pale. then u noe when the pain was unbearable.. i actually asked the helper can stop. okay i damn loser i know. lol. but apparantly if its stopped. whatever it is im donating. will b like wasted. so i TON lo. til the end! proud of myself! :D

anyw it will take 2 weeks for my donation card to arrive and hereby knowing what is my bloodtype. lol. i hope my blood really helped peopo! :D

as for yesterday.. i went out with sharmaine .. my pri sch friend.. went to np to get my comp fixed for the installation of software and etc. while she go collect spa and wellness tee. she's nice enuff to wait for me ! ^^ den funan IT mall-ed to see laptop bag.. she's totally obsessed w a 100+bucks bag. lol.

so tmr going back to amkss! hahaha! its like been quite some time since i went back. time to kajiao the teachers.. time to take photo w the vandalised wall! haha. sad that no more nuggets!! and seaweed chicken for yao! haha. tmr sure will be a better day! so i dun wan tink so much! haha.

actually through this incident. i didnt know i had that much impact on you. at the same time im happy im also unsure. cause u dun show it. mayb its just me trying to figure out whats wrong. mayb its just me with my insecurities.. mayb can show me how much i mean to you? but for now. u are my bff always!

neglected space

2011-04-11T13:59:00.004+08:00

proudly presents to you my laoba!!! :DD

dun we looked alike? say yes! :DDD ok i actually get a bit only la. abit offended when peopo say i looked more like my mum.. cause my mum is not skinny lo. so by saying i looked like her means i fat! -.-

okayy... just finally have a day free to blog.. basically ytd morn after sending my laoba off at airport.. i was busy downloading my kpops. u know comp kena reformatted and can die. all my songs and ah jing files lost, god knows how im gonna retrieve them back. i decided to koop from peopo the eng songs. hehe. smart rite. so now only left chinese songs to get! jiayouu ahhh!

proud of myself cause just finished pearlyn's bdae gift!! :DDD at night gg to do mendi's! not like mei wen lo. start also haven start siol WAKAKAKAKA.

lets rewind back to what happened last 11days.. work from 1st to 3rd.. selling black garlic! not a too bad job. at least the pay is good.. environment not too bad.. jiu its the peopo all ren shi de la.. just that not very shou with kaisheng.. teoh slacked for a day!! then i realised.. yifang like so punctual for work? lol.

actually im suffering from short term memory. i cant really remembered what happened. but there's an aftn where by i went back to pri school.. so saw jiehao they all and gao.. he actually said that he suspect im suffering from depression .. im not sure abt depression but i feel that i did turn to an introvert since dunno when la. haha. but im normal ok! lol then camp from 6th to 8th.. for more info.. pls go to http://www.hpc-screwsyou.blogspot.com/. i dunwan to blog the same thing la. but all in all quite a fun camp... perhaps i shld learn to be less introvert! lol.

fri aftn, my father came.. its YAY. cause i get to spend quality time with him.. somehow la.. i even brought him to make his lao hua yan jing.. then it was big rain and thunder. den got flood patches. when i walked thru it.. one of my slippers got loose and my laoba immediately chiong to retrieve it.. and so sorry to make him wet lo. but he's agile ok! haha. i think i decided to confer him my idol... same rank as ah jing ok.. ok. mayb ah jing higher. lol

saturday night.. jingsg meeting. not too bad, so so so sorry for being late. i tink im always late. cause i need to dinner w my laoba first den i come out.. at least i chiong-ed to meet them.. at least i turned up! :DDD had a good talk with yvonne. which makes me change my perspective towards certain things too

these few days its not too very hectic but i feel so drained. not about being physically drained but its mentally drained.. something gone wrong that fats is half ignoring me somehow.. i really thot i will die.. literally. cause its such an ardous period. i knew where went wrong. but i wanna have a good talk. but the other party is not free. how could i wait ? time waits for no man. at the very least. i hope i could resolve things by tonite.. continue mentally torturing me and i tink my brain cells will die faster and white hair will grow more )):

BTW. today is mei wen's first day of sch! i hope its fun for her and im really happy that i jogged in the morning! training for the nike 5km run! YAY!

fragile

2011-03-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

有些回忆是怎样也抹不掉的。

just reached home not long ago. after visiting my uncle. ytd and today was sort of tiring. cause travelling to and fro hospital. this morning uncle went for his bypass heart surgery. now in ICU. my heart wrenched a bit when i saw my uncle laying there with all the tubes around his body. its looks scary. at the same time fragile. like he could break anytime. i thot that i 'hated' him for all the naggings n stuffs but the truth is i didnt. perhaps 'hate' is a strong word.disliked would be better. perhaps these few days have taught me something more deeper. that no matter how. they are always in my heart.

tuesday wasnt so bad. went to work with aunt at yishun(this is called free labour pls) i dun understand that in my aunt's opinion. doing things fast is equivalent to not doing a good job. like if i wipe the tables n cabinets very fast, means im not doing it properly. she got tink of how big the table, the cabinet is? dun understand lo. so i took like 1h to wipe the floor that day. i guess she must be satisfied at my work done. i dunno re-wiped how many times liao lo-.-

went to meet yao for the 6bucks kbox! sing til damn shuangzzzz!!i realised i go out with yao we hardly or dun take pics one! hha

OKAY.i got lost in what i was blogging. now im deadddd. cause im not very sure if i need to get a new PC or sth. cause of my course requirement. but i dunno how to check which means i need to go down NP. which is like so sianz. worst of all is i dunno if im chosen for my school da camp. can the person quickly let me know so that i can confirm my schedule? going to have jingsg meeting soon!

right. i rant finish alrd. these few days been sleeping earlier ! shall keep up the good work! nites all

blogging beans

2011-03-27T14:03:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARLYN!! :DDD

surprised birthday success was a big success. and i dont know why i get a sense of achievement after making her cry..i think im too bored alrd? LOL.

recently i find myself shouting sianz to myself many times of the day. i dont know whats wrong with me -.- i guess its pointless. cause i felt like im wasting time. though i ought to cherish my days before school start. sigh. maybe deep within me. i just hope that the 3 years will pass quickly. and then i'll be able to earn money. do stuffs that i wanted to do.

weirdly speaking.. yesterday went out with roro. went to watch netball match. YES me the 门外汉watching netball match. haha. but its kind of cool in a sense. i wont say its fun or what. but it felt cool? cause roro will start introducing me her idol etc. and then we will have countless conversations. anyw. it was also an eye-opener for me. so not too bad! haha. and ya. ytd nite the lin feng show very niceeeee! :D

so im quite excited for the coming week. tomorrow going to bring aunt uncle and cousin to marina barrage (they never go before) then tues meeting pri school friends. followed by uncle going for his surgery. i hope everything turns out fine! im sure my uncle's going to be OKAY! then he can nag at me whenever he wan (:

最近的很多事情，让我懊恼，尴尬，开心，欢心。但最终原来我想要的只是人与人之间的相处是舒服的，是不用计较的。可能缺乏安全感的我害怕，担心着不该去想的事情，但我心里是清楚地知道那份感觉的重要性。至少，让我慢慢寻找吧。

我也开始了解，可能放弃也未必是件坏事。当我决定不再插手了，我的心感觉踏实很多，心也不感觉那么沉重了。我仍相信，虽然时间不能让一个人忘记一切，但至少它能冲淡事情的一切。可能这样回想起来，心不会那么痛。那些你以为曾经很重要的，也不再重要了。久而久之，大家也会过得更好，不是吗？但前提是，你有试过吗？

uncertainty

2011-03-22T14:04:00.002+08:00

feels like a big thrash now... i will have this occasional feeling of emptiness and insecurity which i dont know why. that makes me feel numb to things. makes me feel bored. i guess i need some roller coaster ride to boost or give me some adreline rush to my life. tsk.

the last week had been an awesome week of meet-ups. its really awesome to be together with those sec sch peeps again. esp ASC and roro. ok. roro's was two weeks before. but yea. it was still clearly etched in my mind, proves to show how much i miss huan they all!! haha. by the way. ASC is act slim club^^

in comparison to HPC meet up on sat. its an entirely different atmosphere? yes. probably shldnt make comparison? but cant help it? i mean its just human? sometimes i do feel some ... within HPC. like we felt super cheated. cause come so early wait for mendi la. but ahhh. i do miss mendi and pearlyn!! lol. mendi looked so shagged. really poor thing. and recently heard of her misfortune is like funnyyyyy. oops :x

well the main difference is that in ASC.. we are forever talking and updating each other. but in HPC.. not like all the time? and since so many things have happened. i do feel there's a change in something. something which is hard for me to feel it back again. gosh. dont know what im talking about now.

and i clearly enjoyed i am number 4 the movie. cause its really awesome. i cant wait for part2!! and later im going to wwatch litte red riding hood. hehe. yes. im super broke and well. i think im so desperate for job that i wanted to work at 7-eleven -.- cause its at my house downstairs only. SUPER SUPER FANG BIAN!

then again, i might be or should b going back to my hometown for qing ming...

updates

2011-03-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

i feel a bit. urm. dunno? cause i dunno what pic i should put up here! haha. but im here to share about my recent happenings. gotta admit, im busy... living in singapore makes me busy. haha. and im used to it!

actually ever since i came back from bali.. i had gained another perspective of life.. on how i should see things.. the most obvious one is the life in bali and sg. in bali, it seems like so long as you have money.. everything works.. but in sg. money matters but the basic one should have is his/her qualifications.

i felt a inch of guilt somewhere but i knew it cant be helped.. i wondered the other time what kind of elder sister i've been. and upon thinking of it. i felt like im just a sister that walks in n out of my sister's life. i mean,how much do i really know my sister? how much did i even teach my sister? on another note, im glad that she was not led astray. or mayb no chance to. since the whole environment is different for both places. i cant even promise anything to her.. except.. more doting and treat her better(which she sometimes can be quite irritating. HAHA)

so.. aft coming back. settled my enrolment package. then went for the factory job which last minute huimin asked me to. well. not too bad for me i guess. but super epic cause its a 2days job and we worked and we finished the job in a day.. lol. but it didnt matter to me cause its another free day for me to slack!

then was the IT fair job. ahh! i wan to work that manz. pay not too bad. and kills time. better than any of my job that i worked for lo. at least. but was tiring.. cant wait to get my pay! now i wanna find job but i bet none would wan to hire me. i mean, poly is starting soon? ): but i dun wan to slack my days away.. cause i had enough of those slacking days.. need to earn money to support my spendings! haha.

i still remb aft the factory job, i went out and i spent money.. peacefully? i mean it was my money and the sense of satisfaction of spending it was. YAY. shuangz. but i didnt spend all of it la. LOL.

two days ago.. went kbox with dplus. it was a complicated process. whereby after many changes in plan, we went to sing k. and the 2 hours is simply not enoughh!! i think im going to find another day to sing k again. hahaha. anyone? dplus gathering always not too bad one. which i dunno why also? lol. (but some complications arise and can really dampen peopo's mood)

yesterday.. yao pei-ed me to bring my laptop for servicing. and yes its over the warranty alrd. and i need to pay.. for it!! T_T my IT fair job de pay!! T_T okay. so then the person called me up today and its ready. thats fast? lol. (dun doubt, im using my cousin's laptop now) so probably tomorrow i will collect my laptop before meeting huan they all ! yes. meet up with huan they all!
this whole week is like all about meet ups! and of course.. saturday! HPC meet up! alriteee gtg.
i will try update my blog promptly.. but do keep a lookout here! (:

invincible youth

2011-03-04T00:27:00.002+08:00

Recently these few days.. luckily i have invincible youth to accompany me. cause as of today, im officially bored. really. apparantly, if not for me blur-ly missing my flight. i wont feel so bored.. and im lazy to unpack,lazy to dig up my dvds to watch.. lazy! so i either play ps2 or use my blackberry or go online. which blackberry or here de connection is so so so slowww. -.-

as of nyepi(balinese new year) quite looking forward to it.. not about the eggs thrown at me.. its the parade held.. and if laoba laoma not working.. means family time? YAY DAEBAK :D

btw im coming back on 7th 1255pm flight... which is confirmed and nv see wrong le.. and hopefully.. good things await me!! i've yet to call up my aunt to check on the enrolment package.. mayb tomorrow ba , hehe,

i just came back from my cousin's hse playing WII. lol. play til can sweat siaaa. lol. den use cousin computer.. teach me play point of blank.. its just like counter strike la. i tink im not good at such comp games.. it makes me headache.. only good at audi!! lol. i missed playing it! and i cant buy those electronic games.. cause i no time playyy!! btw i won my cousin lo. playing WII baseball. i home run-ed thrice and striked thrice for bowlinggg!! PRO RITE :D

alrite. despite staying here my mind is like in spore.. i feel like i got tons of unfinished business? but nevertheless.. i will just enjoy my stay here. enjoy nua-ing here til i really rot!!

cya guys all really soon! now i got another prob, i scared reach spore my starhub sim card cannt use!! cause i forgot pay bill before i come!! so got like 2 months no pay bills? LOL LOL LOL

one week

2011-02-19T23:44:00.002+08:00

its one week exactly before i go back to spore.. so how do i feel?! dilemma?! i sorta want to go back sooner but actually i liked it here.. with my family... but seriously im just so used to my life at sg, that its hard to change. altho i've adapted here.. haha

just fyi thing. when i sleep.. i can hear some stuffs crawling arnd my roof and it sounds creepy but used to it cause no big deal. then i shit every morn and nite. super healthy i know. think credits goes to my laoma blended tomato and orange juice. and then my legs will go numb cause squat too long-.- i fell down this week. shan't mention it since not so glorious. i shopped alot here. (bought 2 cartoons of indomie!! :D)

so.. other than that.. i've been napping.. which is not good?! well. nth to do bu jiu sleep? or watch dvds lo. alot alot alot. i still got quite a lot to watch. but it gets boring too. i bought gossip girl and i dun really tink its super nice. dexter is not bad.. started to watch glee too. aiya.i still love my vamp diaries tons. liek tons and tons. big love!!

and i'll cya guys in a week. i expect alot of catch up/meet ups.. roro alrd date me le lo.. hehe..

bali's life

2011-02-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

me and my mei mei.. (who is entirely different from looks and character)

alright, i admit, im enjoying life here..
so much that i swear i must have grown fatter!! but whatever it is ,it feels great to be with my family. really. aft seeing them then i realised how much i've missed them? and as usual my dad's the great cook, not my mum. lol. even when i was small. my impression is that whatever my dad cooks is always yummy :D

and ohh!! sth happy to share, i bought my wireless mouse, which i wanted long long long ago but bu she de mai, den here airport is quite cheap. hahahaha. and i shopped in airport too.

i didnt want to post what i did today here. cause it sounds stupid. checkout my hpc blogg.. and
I LOVE MY FAMILY :D

ps: sorry for the attire cause its in pyjamas. LOL

woah

2011-02-09T20:14:00.002+08:00

AT AIRPORT WIRELESS! haha.

so many things to see here!(cause i first time see)
then suddenly here de things very suit dajie and mendi
who buy things w/o tinking. okayyyy.
but here the electronic stuffs quite worth it.
so byeeeeee

out of town

2011-02-09T16:55:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY. decided to upload and blog a bit before i go off to airport. got reason ok, hehe, den if u alll miss me, u all can just come here and see 'me' LOL

okay ytd was tad too tired to blog.. basically i think i got phobia of Bugis and bugis OG alrd. i've been visiting it so many times til i sick of it alrd!! means.. yes. ytd i brought my aunt they all there again. bo bian,, they wan go the guan yin miao dere pray pray, lol.

then i left at about 4plus.. cause their relatives came as in bringing them arnd. so henggg, den i zao liao lo. went to meet up with roro and pearlyn. ended up at 202. den went to watch mr and mrs incredible with jingsg peopo. quite a not bad he sui pian. cause its funny and stress free? yeap. so not too bad.

and luckily xavis drove me homee! or not god knows how late it will be when im home! :D

met up with vi for a while den with madm edna. haha. im like so busy? yes i know. i just reached home not long after all that shopping. shop for stuffs for my cousins, mei mei and laoma. all the stuffs. until so tired.. plus the meet ups.. but well.. i can sleep on the aeroplane and nua of courseee

nice meeting up with all these peeps before i leaveee... but just very sad nv get to meet ah huan they all!! T_T but shall wait til i come back!

meanwhile. do keep lookout for my weekly updates on hpc blog and HERE! hehe.

(%$^!^&!$ just now some christian woman knock on my door AGAIN. she still say next time come find me again.. i just dun understand sia.. their obsession?! dunno, jiu, i dun like. waste my time!! !#!##__++!#)

I'LL BE BACK ON 26th FEB :DDD

在一起

2011-02-07T17:27:00.002+08:00

IF SOMETHING IS MEANT TO LAST,

TIME IS NOT A MATTER

wow, just suddenly being enlightened. yesterday was texting with roro. and thats what she told me. i think she's right.. if HPC is meant to last.. time is not a matter. roro li hai lo. i feel so much better alrd. actually alrd feel much better aft the gathering :D

went to steamboat, ahaha, of course must ask those can eat de go den more worth. eg. dajie koop all the crabs, she pro lo. we sat there abt 6plus.. from not so many peopo.. to alot of peopo.. sometimes i wondered. its actually quite fun to see peopo. i mean. observe peopo.

oh. roro told me in order to be not sticky. just keep myself busy.. (okay, i was being rdm)

then we last minute-ed decided to go bomb mei wen!! sooooo fun!! haha, call her serve us. lol. clean our shoes, serve us. give us water. haha. and wow the food/desert is super nice. that explains the price. lol.

but super funny cause we were like psst pssst.
then she turned around. thinking nth much.
den eyes suddenly grows wider den run to us n say
why are u all here?!! haha!!
fake fake lo. i can see her secretly happy, still say wat nv inform her earlier. den she can tie nicer hair. no diff la mei wen. lol

then stayed and wait for mei wen to go home together. haha. waliu, i left my ez link card with mendi. cause i was helping her carry her shopping bag, den just shun shou put inside. den going home that time then realise. must be the aftermath for mixing with mei wen too much!! i dun usually soo.. soo blur one leh. lol.

and ya. i feel like slapping mei wen dajie and pearlyn. for laughing at me upon seeing me, next time im gonna fart in front of u all upon seeing u all. HAH! IN UR FACE! haha.

side track a bit. one of my friends actually tinking of gg overseas to study.. den i was saying. just go la! if can leave spore i also will go one. den kok was saying.. its not you. of course u say so.. quite true.. cause for my that friend. there are still things thats holding her back.. but yeala. it depends actually. like me. hor. i wan go back indo.. feel so bu fang xin lo. haha. and like vanny say.. our friends are all here. indo also no friend.. thats the disadvantage for studying overseas ba..

alriteee. today kena surprised bomb cause my relatives they all came over to stay.. cause they going genting. shuangz lo. but means i wont b online often.. plus need to help my laoba laoma n mei mei buy thingggsss. argh, im forever busyy. okay ,

AH NEONG PEOPO. ^^

空位

2011-02-06T01:05:00.004+08:00

一個人翻身等夢的來臨一個人回憶苦無邊境

思念多濃郁好想告訴你空號卻是你給的回應

曾經我以為夠懂你可以照顧你心情

你含淚盼望是他愛你原來太深情太疼惜也是悲劇

一個人弧單像住在殼裡一個人安靜卻不平靜

不願意忘記並不是任性已投入全部生命還剩什麼能抽離

假如能有些恨你我也許慢慢會痊癒

可悲的是我認定你怕不公平不得已才會絕情

在我身旁的空位無論會有誰暫時依偎

都像落葉季節都像少了月圓荒涼沒滋味

在我胸膛的空位就等你疲憊回來入睡

就算會有痛覺就算還會告別寧愛不悔

i listened to this song when i was on my way home. then i heard it on the radio. i liked the song for its lyrics.. i feel it. not totally of course.. but somehow. my heart. feels something is missing. but i dunno what's missing.

today（yesterday to be exact) went to Ms tay's house to bainian. i liked her room's colour combination. Most importantly, she had a big double bed to sleep on! i still remembered me sleeping on my aunt's big bed when they went stayover for chalet. but i damn suay cause next day 5am woke up ironing rc uni cause next day got camｐ!! T_T suay riteeee. lol. anyw ms tay room i dun like is too much books. then makes it dirty/untidy.

ms tay commented: i realised you are the only one in class who mi those idol and stuffs. i hardly see the rest doing so.

actually i lazy to explain to her. but well. dont stop me from doing so!! cause i may get depression! mayb for most of u all.. u all dun understand.. being able to zui xing.. leaves me feeling more whole and complete.. there's this somebody whom i looking forward to. whom i adore.. rather than having feeling empty all the tiem. so to those who want stop me from chasing Jing. arbush* to you! lol

anyw side track a bit.. i tink im too sticky to some of my friends alrd-.- and i tink recently im getting weirder and weirder? LOL. i actually liked to go online den like chat with friends. one of them is mendi. dunno leh. it can become a xi guan to go online. just to wait for that particular person to online. den chat? weird me! i tink cause i too kong xian le la. LOL. MUST BE. haha

anyw i think today is one of the bestest cny days.. which i dunno why. mayb cause im starting to get used to my uncle's friends yearly gathering.. last time i used to tink its so awkward and weird to meet them once a year.. to liek even bond. cause wats the use? since its only once a year.. but they re always nice and friendly.. mayb it became a xi guan too? LOL.

tomorrow(today) is another day to look forward to! cause.. steamboat! haha. morning going Ernest house bai nian, shldnt be too bad ba. hahahaha.

我想我开始想通了
越是想抓紧的东西，越是抓不紧
但我永远不会是松手的那个人
因为我会永远在原地等待

im not so bent on certain things anymore. cause i realised its pointless. just let nature takes its course and just let things be. what for holding on something that u cant even hold?

anyw to vi laoma..heard from vivian that u do read my blog!! suo yi.. please feel free to tag!! haha. last time i used to hate adults like reading my blog or anything.. but i guess its a but immature?the fact that im blogging means im alrd prepared to let peopo see what im posting, be it the person i even know or not. isnt it? so please tag! haahahaha. and welcome :DDD

jiu recently.. well not really recently.. this year la. im working towards a more action less talk person.. nowadays. when i see my room too messy. i cant stand it! then i will start vacuuming and mopping the whole house, which i dont used to do. so its a small/mini improvements rite? so i hope i'll work on it more and more! den become a you yong de ren!(ok sounds lame)

but anyw, i gotta go sleep alrd. TIRED! nites (:

we're all drifters

2011-02-05T01:03:00.002+08:00

me and my gay pyjamasss...! lol. piggy = pearlyn. OOPS :x (dun tink she reads my blog one)

a series of funny msn convo chats just left me cracking, and i need to mend somebody's affairs cause that somebody is someone i cared for :D

alright. im just sad... for just now.. but aft talking to fats. felt better? i dunno how but just felt better lo. im sad cause now i believe we r all drifters. so much for my effort trying to plan something. i think its the last time im doing planing anymore. serious.

lets just face it peopo. realistic. JC and poly. 本来就很难聚在一起。不是吗？i just feel it. 然后久而久之我所在意的是，变得不再去在乎了。不是不想，而是不能。因为还能怎样？

but all i can say is.. i wont be the one to drift.i will always watch u all.. walking in and out. on and off. but i'll always be there. sounds weida but im not. i cant say i wont change or didnt change, but what i believed in remains unchanged..

(woa... type liao feel so muchhhh better. lol)

today like feels tired easily.. despite my three hour power nap!!LOL. and im excited for tomorrow! like. hehe. i think its fun lo!! LOL. and now i seriously need to lose some weight!! cause i've been eaating!! and go bali sure eat! but will have morning jogs!lovely beach morning jogs. most importantly is see my laoba laoma n mei mei!

i guess i hardly mentioned abt my parents rite? but i guess no harm mentioning now.. actually for the whole of pri sch life.. i've been envious of peopo. peopo with parents by their side. peopo with parents to throw tantrum to. but me? nobody. in fact. i cant. mayb thats y it explains my super high EQ and that i dun throw temper at anybody that easily? but since sec sch. i sorta changed my focus to friends. and it feels somehow better. there's this point whereby i see friends more than anything, its not correct.. cause we'll always have to strike a balance between friends and family..(:

then since upper sec. the feelings more or less not that strongly.. i wont say i dun miss my family but actually the most ardous period was total 4years nv seeing them. so what can be more difficult than that rite? so sorta kan kai le la.. but losing something means gaining another thing. i just i became more and more independent. so much that i want to earn big bucks now. and in future. going to own a house.. a dog!haha!

and oh, i hardly mention results too cause its too chui alrd. this time round dunno leh. when i get my results. no feelings , nth. cause i was tinking. what can be worse than my normal school time results? mayb the heart to study its no longer there le. so hopefully. poly will be a new start and i will work damn harddd!!(hopefully i can get into my course T_T)

wow.. thats a long post. i tink alot hmm.. at night. lol. but byeee. and i hope i can blog weekly.. when im in bali! at least not so out of touchhh.. !! its four more days before i fly off!!

dead cny

2011-02-04T01:36:00.003+08:00

SHUAIZ JING! hehe.i cant wait to get my hand on her book! as for ep.. urm i dno >.<

decided to be very enthu and post like evryday.. cause im going bali soon...!! then blog will like be quite quiet and dead?

currently listening to radio shows where ah jing attended. awww i missed her )):

today was a slack day for me. which is good. but i haven been practising. so this is bad?! haha. but slack is good! and oh. i've had another sumptuous meal. like awesome! cause really full! den da nian chu yi and my good friend come visit me. damn zun please-.-

told ya that cny is boring and it indeed is. luckily there's jing :D

but its kinda late now. i think i'll listen to her again tomorrow! heard that tmr is another nua day! yay! ok. this blog a bit pointless? LOL.

gosh i wanna talk to u!! where r u??!!

chinese new year nightmares

2011-02-03T00:58:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

since when i started to have no feelings to chinese new year? since when i start to dislike it? i still remembered the first year im celebrating chinese new year here. i was awfully excited about it. cause perhaps in my memory, in my childhood times. i vividly remembered about eating all the snacks, new year goodies. going around my father's friend house. listening to them talking while he sip his tiger beer and occassional karaoke singings...

it felt good to be able to lay on a surface and type on laptop. finally understood the shuangness!!

this year was a horrid year for me? esp when reaching chinese new year. i was in a fiery anger cause wow. my house is super messy, til now. my aunt still packing the house.

i dun consider myself as some weida peopo or anything. but for 3weeks. i have been going to my aunt workplace, helping to pack the house and yet aunt ask. u have been helping a lot meh?! it felt like all those sacrifices are nothing, sua lo.

im feeling so tired and restless these few days...
i hope im going bali to see my parents soon!!^^
and this wed got jingfan de interview. i wan watchhh!!
but im on the way to bali!!

(woa. somebody told me something shocking.)

today ms tay asked me: are you a kes?!
apparantly, from my obsession of chasing jing. ms tay thot im les-.- but i shook my hands.. actually before she ask.. got a few peopo ask me . den last time i always gets very shocked and uptight. now hor. immune alrd. -.-

so recently i keep thinking if its weird. but aft a talk with someone. i feel im not that weird? i have been actually urm, online talking to my friend la. but purposely online just to talk to my friend? which i dun normally do so? not weird ah?

then whenever im alone.i always feel this kong wei. like empty. empty space. for dunno who to fill up? actually mayb cause i feel lost.. i dunno whats going to happen in e future.. but i dunno? cause maybe im actually begin to miss alot of my friends.. OK. i dunno what im typing. shucks.

SOMEBODY TOTALLY BROKE MY CHAIN OF EMO THOTS. i think this world is going crazyyyyy now..

but i just want to say this.. to dajie, vivian fats roro and hpc and asc, i'll be here for you guys whenever u all need me or that particular someone that u want talk to(:

ah jing craze

2011-01-31T21:31:00.001+08:00

DANG!

i want to blog but.. i was looking thru ah jing's 1980 pics on tagged photo on fb!

WHY IS SHE SO SHUAIZ! ^^

her new song is daebak! :DDD

PLEASE DUN COME HERE WHEN IM NOT AROUND HOR :D

twist of a turn

2011-01-27T00:13:00.002+08:00

cute pic above. its been some time since im met roro and jackie and both are going to start new adventure tomorrow. must keep in contact k?

alright posting results are out. and im not satisfied, the moment i got the sms i cant sleep. my mind was going. appeal appeal appeal. and damn scared. and then i went to the school and went thru some torment of mental thinkings and stuffs like that. so back to square one. waiting for arrival of tomorrow and hoping for the best.

Thanks yao for pei-ing me today. at least i felt less lonely and she tried to make me laugh well i did luh. but hers was really -.- and i made her laugh more and felt bad to let her eat kfc alone.

and yes i went to sing k with fyon xian and huimin. (trust me to do such stuff at tat moment) but cause i feel v bad to cancel since its pri sch friends..? and i was like 1 and half h late. but nvm. at least i felt better. esp singing ah jing songs. it gave me some weird source of strength(sounds kua zhang but i really feel that) and it temporarily kept me out of thinking abt my courses lo.

and screw the postman. i really think letter is lost. SUA. i dun trust singpost ANYMORE.zzz

i seriously dunno wats wrong with me. im not sure if im still living in the past? im healing from the scar. (ok its abt my results) mayb up til now i still haven get over it. mayb it still bothers me. mayb i should go see doc? ok mayb not. i just dun haf the urge to study anymore? mayb it explains the shitty results? this calling kept replaying in my head until i decided not to think about it.

but really.if i get into that course. i'll work super super hard. super super hard.

is there even any leash of hope for me?):

poor thing

2011-01-22T21:53:00.003+08:00

alright, im a bad blog owner cause my blog is dead. for quite some time? and that is cause im busy alright. and i find momentum to blog de

i've been thinking of what's the purpose of blog actually. then i'd realise im actually blogging for others not for myself. in the future to come, isn't it due to blog that u can check a person's recent happenings? Just admit that im correct ba.

my latest happening was the sec1 orientation camp. It was not too bad cause im not an exco or councillor so i don't have this burden or responsibility to make sure the camp is going okay. Yet at the same time its boring. cause my mindset is like.. im just here to see see . well best part was the late nite chat with alyssa and carol. its was great. ah manz, im gonna miss them alot. oh. of course got vince and kok too. they never fail to make me laughhh. anyw we left school at 5am for make breakfast and then came back again. i left at 9am with huimin, yes i know im a slacker. but what to do? hahahahaha

i think its quite sad cause its my last camp alrd in AMKSS? yeap. and well i wanted to highlight about the food. the buffet just gets more and more high classed each year. and i thought it looked delicious. and wow. one taste of the fish meat and its like putting salt into my mouth and one taste of donut and it tasted like super sweet sugar -.- should have seen carol and alyssa epic faces. so cool^^

ohya. ah huan!(dunno she read my blog a not) HTHT with kok leh! kok say so sad dun have youuuuu. lol.

recently my mood or feeling or whatever you call it was not in a very good state. I keep getting this weird feeling of emptiness. i think im kind of sick of my life? i dont know eh. it feels so sianz and boring and everyday i have so much things to complete and its all boring family chores. i wished i'd get busy over school stuff than house stuffs. more meaningful at least. then there's this weird doing of mine. im like into doing housework- vacuum whole house and mopping the floor. i just get super irritated and gao wek when i saw my house damn messy/dirty. oh i also realised the urge of me moving house GROWS. like seriously. i wished i could earn big bucks soon, move out of the house and own a house. that'll be so cool. and i want a dog as pet pet :D

i havent been much in contact with peopo around me too. partly because they are busy and i dont know what to do. like arrange meet-ups for? and what if i chui-ed it again? yea. and facebook is getting boring-er

ohwell. i hope i can start on farewell gifts real soon. really. then maybe i wont so bored? and i feel bad lo. cause im flying to bali in feb. which i cant celebrate yours and roro's birthday.. my bad )):

i'll try to update again!! and mr postman. please do ur job well )):

for my adams(;

2011-01-13T00:33:00.002+08:00

This is a special post that im giving to my dearest Jo Kwon and Ga In.

To adam couple:
Thankyou for the endless laughters and sweet moments you gave me while watching u two.
Thankyou for being the pillar of my support when im down.
Thankyou for being part of my life.

Truthfully speaking, if it wasn't for them.. i wouldnt go into kpop craze and i wouldnt even have any topics to talk to huan and chloe and all the kpop fans. so its really quite a cool experience. and somehow im finding myself getting out and out of touch of kpop. could it be the departure of the adam couple?

althought they are still acting in All My Love but i feel that its really different. they cant do things like what a couple could do any longer.. that, i feel that its a pity

i still remembered that it was during one of the boring fridays.. cause i couldnt find things to do and huan they all were saying about watching 'We Got Married' and out of curiousity i went to watched it i remembered the date was 9th april.. and i cant stop watching them.. til i chionged 10plus episodes during the weekends.

then i really liked them alot and started on collecting their pictures and songs.. and so long as any video regarding them.. i would also watch. so much that 2AM and Brown Eyed Girls are my two most fav kpop group, i'll proudly say..

i have to admit that im not their hardcore fan too.. but i truly loved them .. and i hope for all the best to their future uprising idol career and both of them will always be in my heart(:

BIG LOVE TO ADAMS.

I WOULD MISS THEM ALOT(:

final results

2011-01-10T18:40:00.002+08:00

ITS RESULTS DAY and hows ur results?

i can't say i scored very well and can't say i scored awfully bad cause i can see others who's scoring real bad or lousier than me. and i feel particularly sad for Huan cause she cried so badly and yet there's nothing i could do. i really hate the feel of being so helpless to the other person ):

so huan.. please cheer up!(:

anyw im not going to reveal or say anything about my results cause those who want to know should just find me and ask or should alrd know. but take it that i scored really badly.. !

seriously when i got my results i was disappointed. cause i see the Cs and really freaking sianz. but yet i should feel contented right? cause what can be worse than my daily results of prelims and tests that im over time and time and again and again faced with disappointment. NONE. so much that i've grew immune to it and that i no longer had any feelings when i received my results. that's a pathetic adaptation i guess? hmm..

then again, i was really disappointed with my combined humantities cause i totally de-performed. so much that i felt guilt towards ms lim. thats when i teared a bit when i saw her. i didnt mean to cry but tears just automatically rolled down. anyway.. its less than 3minutes luh! but im happy for my maths and eng..

and happy for xingjun as well for being the scholar of our class!! SHE SO DAMN ZAI (and skinny!!)

meeting friends later and im now seriously super troubled on what courses to choose. argh!

boring

2011-01-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

my super cute cousins.. Jerry and Kenneth.

awwww manz. my life is so mundane/boring/boliao/nth-to-do/eat finish liao dunno do what/sianz/wuliao/men
and yes. my life-.-

and now i see this tagboard completely dead and i got the itch to remove it. and now i've even got the desire to close my blog. since its like quite pathetic? but like i just opened my blog. LOL. yarla.

so these few days wasnt really productive. my supposedly time was spent on packing my songs. and photos. for farewell presents. i haven start on it yet. so hoping now i can start. like tomorrow and hopefully im able to go out with huimin on tues! yay. time to get my own camera :D

i guess rest of the days will be spent. dunno doing what too. ok, thats the bad thing of not working i guess. cause everybody like busy working and now worse. school's started. even harder to ask peopo out now.

alrite. i shld stop whining. shld get back to my kpop world la.

ps: when will it be my turn? ):

its revival time

2011-01-01T01:41:00.002+08:00

HELLLLOOOOOOO BLOGGGGG

you're revived!!

its 2011 and hence i would to do the usual boring new year resolutions...
#1 be less nua
#2 be a better person by being more initiative, more action and less talk, be neater
#3 less sticky to some of my friends
#4 cheerful always! (be more positive and stop whining!!)
#5 support Jing til im wearing dentures!!
#6 help out in housework (like hoping to be a weekly thing)

and i cant think of anything more.

so i guess i had a fun day going out with roro and pearlyn with the museum trip, ben and jerry and movies(little fockers) come to think of it its not such a boring new year eve ba, and next year im going countdown!! for sure! yay yay. and this year im waiting for two person bring me go drinking and clubbing. HOHO.

so i wont promise with the everyday im going to blog thing cause im not going to. i shall just blog when i feel liek it. with chinese words of course if i like. hehe.

lastly, special thanks to lipase roro HPC (dajie meiwen shihui kewei pearlyn mendi) DPLUS (huimin and jacq) class 4/2 (some) for being part of my life in 2010. 2010 has been a fulfiling and yet irritating year as i have been busy mugging and worrying 3/4 of the year for my results but nonetheless i received lots of love from tchers and friends (esp mentioned above). they created tears and sweats, joy and laughters in my supposedly boring world.im sure that year 2010 wont be the same without them and just to let u guys know.

I LOVE YOU ALL :D (ALOT)

my eyes closing on me
NITES!

PS: it 2am now :D

The BIGGEST birthday girl...

2010-09-06T19:33:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH JING!

张芸京生日快乐!!

this singer that changes my opinion towards life. maybe i should inspire myself to watch ONCE. an irish movie. but im really glad that i've gotten know her. for i've learnt and experience a lot of things. i've meet nice friends too.

anyw i dreamt of ah jing yesterday. my third time dreaming of her. the dream was so true and realistic that i didnt want to wake up. cause subconsciously,i know that im on my bed. i know that its my beautiful dream.

i dreamt that i went for ah jing's event and then i was waiting for something. at that point of time. ah jing was waiting too. then i played PEPSI COLA ONE TWO THREE WITH HER. yes. epic right. then we were playing until, we became familiar with each other. then i dunno why, ah jing decided to give me something as momento. then i was having a dilemma choosing over her shirt or her skateboard or her drawing after she has given me her keychain and something else that she signed on. then i asked " am i too greedy?" and i woke up.

wow. what a dream. it was my best dream, best that it felt so realistic.

approximately three weeks didnt go online. i was quite adapted to such life. and the time spent on studying. i ought to treat it as a joy and a pleasant event for not many has the chance to study. and im grabbing each opportunity to do so.

i admit. im slacking for the past 3days. today's the 4th. after today. washes my hands off the cyber world. i didnt want at the end of everything, i will have regrets. i will blame myself. certainly. i wont let such thing happen. whatever it is.

shall learn from roro! ^^

so its time to officially close my blog! but let me update some real old photos!

my laogong gave me this, from hongkong(:

from a plain cake..

to Dajie's patrick!

mei wen's fat hand!

...!

the cute biscuit that fatin gave.

so i shall officially close my blog..

TILL AFTER O's THEN!

STUDYY HARDDDD :DDDD

拼了！！！

finally.. after so long!

2010-08-07T00:43:00.003+08:00

group photo with michelle aka minchong... she's the president for jing international forum in america...lol

let me do a formal introduction... left first row...
tomato, me, michelle, blurblock aka block aka yew xin yi, karen

second row...

jessie and joe.

here still missed out xavis carmen amy and jasmine for a complete comms photo. (anyw i secretly wanna laugh at the photo i saw abt one year ago where we took a group photo. we all changed quite a lot! haha)

im currently very excited now cause its a day before jing's arrival and as mentioned. shall close my blog after ah jing event. but can still catch me at hpc blog on every saturday.

ohya. im very excited too for the st james event... hehe. shall write up a speech first. excites* anyw i bet nobody ever comes this blog anymore.. but well i feel like typing, what to do? haaha.

actually im grattitude and guilty to them at times. grattitude cause they always let me go off early la, treat me la etc.. like, they re not obliged to do that rite? guilty that im not gg for the airport picking and sending of ah jing. guilty for not doing my job well. cause it's o's this year and there's certain things that i have to make a choice with.. wat to do? tats life...

so... a word of thanks and sorry to them then! XDD

next is i hope aft jing's event, my heart would be able to settle down and study even harder. i feeel that the effort for studying is not enough and i certainly dun wish to see myself regretful of anything...

recently... i just thought of 等价交换。但你得到一样东西时，你就会失去某些东西。believe it a not. its true. and the things that u gained or lost is all worth the same value. (a bit brain dead now) i've been having a lot of unhappiness these few days esp when u see ur results not improving. esp when u have worries that can only add on to worries. but whatever it is. i know that it will all be over if i perservere on.

i shall go sleep alrd. nites. JING HWAITING!! :DDD

study hard!

2010-07-13T16:56:00.002+08:00

YUPP im BOASTING. cause last sat i went to see 2AM at IMM. hehe.
im not officially their fan YET. cause im not all that craze over them.
but i went over to see them was to hear them live.
and i swear they're awesome! :DDD
im going for any of their concert in the future and i'll listen to their songs! hehe

to add on to the good news right, ah jing released her second album
with much loves and lots of loves.
this album is better than her first album and i loved her voice.
cant wait to get my hands on the other two covers
yepp. im also officially pok alrd.
and ytd i chionged down to HMV to buy.
cant wait any longer y'know
taiwan's album alrd released on friday le lo.

i swear ah jing looks very man on this cover! lol. esp the back cover
and of course i've been showing peopo arnd my maginificent album
i simply cant let it rot and rest at home
without seeing the light. hehe.

the very good news also...

AH JING IS COMING ON 8 AUGUST 2010!
DAEBAK! :DDDD

i admit that i've been neglecting my blog
neglect til. i didnt even wish myself happy birthday!
but

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELATED SUPER TO ME! haha

this year celebration was not bad
despite didnt do much with HPC
went on bbq with huan they all instead.
and i cant post all the pics yet
cause haven complete collection
my presents haven receive finish also(ahh. just kidding. lol)
LOL.

so then altho stepped down from everything alrd.
im still very very very busy
dun ask me why.

and tday's a glee cause no EC this week
hehe. like finally early go home.

guess now the most impt thing is to study hard
i so wanna chase back all my good results
THATS IT!!

ps: i wanna say this to VIVIAN TAN MEI WEN
i can understand if u dun like ah jing
and im not forcing u to like her and have no plans to do so
but u CANNT stop me from 'broadcasting' her to my other friends or watever.
and since im not ranting jing to u.
pls dun stop/cut me and say those awful stuffs abt jing.
THANKS.

sleepover at mendi's

2010-06-26T13:53:00.003+08:00

Shakes off the bad feelings*
shall blog about the sleepover at mendi's house

this is my favourite pic okay. altho its small and without shihui, haha!

firstlty.
SORRY for being late.
like i didnt mean to. im rushing my way to meet HPC
got this two salesgirl ask me do some survey
i told them alrd that im rushing for time
then they say 5min will do.
me being a nice girl. thot it wont do any harm
TA MA DE. took me 20min.zzz
hao xin mei hao bao

and so i sorta asked HPC wan wait for me a not la.
then i HEARD them complaining
so might as well call them go ahead first lo.
funny is dajie called me and tell me they reaching chomp chomp alrd
heh. i saw them at cheers there when im in the MRT.
epic faillll.
so i acted as if i nv see them lo^^
far far away alrd see mendi's head popping out.
hahahahahah.

ohyea. we heading to chomp chomp
and then i called zoei for directions.
hao yang de lo. first thing answered and say : WHO ARE YOU?-.-
TA MA DE ZOEI, lol

reached there ordered like 36bucks of food
which barely makes me full.
but i brought jiamin's cookies
like finally full. and ya the sugarcane juice glass is damn big.
lol.

we surprised visit-ed SHIHUI!
im sure that she is damn shocked!
im even more sure that her mum is more shocked than her!
hahahahahahhahaha.
her house is quite homely and funny. haha.
and her allergies...-.- thats why she cant join us at mendi's
i was like thinking HPC finally 7 peopo all present. tsk.

mendi's hse totally felt like hotel, like wat mei wen say
even when im bathing i feel like im in the hotel-.-

hehehehe.
midnite. i fry-ed nuggets and made some popcorn chickens with kewei
argh. okay fattening but eh.
hungry and i slept at 3am after studying lo.
kewei slept earliest.
den dajie and vi latest.
LOL. i was squeezing on the sofa with dajie.
and my legs felt like numb breaking

and i love my BROWN EYED GIRLS ALARM SONG-SIGN
TOTALLY WOKE KEWEI UP and i slept at her place, hahahah

morning's mac delivery big breakfast
and im having sore throat
thats why i can nv eat mac breakfast except mcgriddles.
ah manz,
my poor throat

anyw mendi shld be happy tat we pei-ed her!

and can u believe it?!!
sch's starting alrd..
sadddddddddddddd face ):

2010-06-24T23:52:00.001+08:00

i think i rather stay at mendi house than here

lousy day

2010-06-23T01:24:00.002+08:00

had a bad day today. didnt know exactly how bad was that. but the feeling just sucks. then went online and watched a few videos. ah manz. jo kwon totally cheered me up, think next time i know who to look for when im sad! this week's wgm is really so funny...! why isnt the english sub episode one out yet? )):

and been watching few videos on kara too. well they're ranked no3 aft brown eyed girls and 2am. haha. both group on par. for the rest of the group. i liked the individuals than the group and invisible youth is funny today too!

and i think i didnt mention that mioTV has kbsworld which means i can watch those korean channels~ hehe. feel quite shuangz actually and some more got subs. totally zhuan dao. also also. fm 96.3 8 to 10pm air korean songs too! cool~ thanks jacq for the intro^^

i think the kpop totally brainwashed me. haha. but so cool! since im like listening to some unknown foreign language.

im gg to study before i sleep. sleepover at mendi hse later. mendi must be thankful that got us to pei her! haha

LASTLY. THANKYOU SEC1s FOR UR BELATED FAREWELL CUM GOODLUCK PARTY. TOUCHED BY UR XIN YI OKAY.

RANTINGS

2010-06-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

just ytd. i went to watch karate kid with Lipase.
before that was studying.
i think im totally sick of BIO alrd.
this whole week like keep mugging it.

i think i would rate it 3.5/5.
there's a touching part and mostly funny parts.
i think the part where there's a relationship
ah manz, they're only 12 yrs old! -.-

and yea. jackie chan looks old in there.
so jacq, we both agree that its nice^^
ohya. if u noticed, the actress of jaden smith mother
facial expression damn zai.
i keeo laughing at her lo! haha

decided to post about my dear ah jing~!
yes. i admit its been sometime since im going hoo-haa over her
but that's cause she's really quiet and there's nth much to say about
y'know y'know. i cant't wait for her second album..!
9th julyyyyyy. HOLY MAMA!

then there'll be every reason for me to listen to her songs
to go her forums to catch on her news!
(i admit. im guilty. hasnt been gg to her forum for quite some time. its tiring de leh)
DEN AGAIN!
shall go back to the forum!
there's even a more holy news that ah jing is cominggggg to sporeeeee
BUT. dno when.
but i hope she comes after O's or before prelims~ (like aug or sth)
if not. i think i will cry manz.

her zao xing this time round quite cool also~
AH MANZ~~~~~~
u all shld hear her new songs HUAI LE and XIANG FAN DE WO.
all very nice.

right. having meeting this sat...

btw this week im alrd fully booked :x

Cousin from indo came over again!
and i totally pyscho-ed her to watch WGM Ga In and Jo Kwon.

ohh. they recently broadcast how they got their couple ring~
super cuteeeeeee u noeeeeeeee.
imagine my life without them

hell lose alot of entertainment OKAY.
and i've been following them on twitter
all my twitter is all the korean artistes, hehe.

OHYA. 2am coming sporeeee leh
i wan hear them sing live~

JINGSG ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY

2010-06-15T23:33:00.003+08:00

well, instead of blogging the group pics,
i think that this is nice!
this is our own created watermark!

just last sunday.
we went to Sentosa to have our first one year old celebration.
we had two cakes FYI.
i only ate one of course and super creamy and fattening.

so was late for abt 7min.
coz went to huimin's hse to settle my cousin stuff.
sorry for being late! >.<

happily reached there and forgot about cynthia.
well. she's very late and when she reached
she called me.
but my bag was buried under many bags plus it was rainning.
so i didnt bother abt my hp. totally.

and most pathetic thing was.
it was still all bright in the morn and when upon reaching
its started to rain.
we like reach there to avoid rain.

NEVERTHELESS.
we continued to play under the rain
played beach soccer.
funny. coz the group separated to 'children' and 'adult' section.
adult section v hiong.
reached nia. jiu drink beer le.

den we played beach captain ball also.
ah man. the adult section peopo not bad ok!
altho they much older than us.
and tam cher and phoebe totally super funny.

and was glad that this time round
got 20plus peopo are students.
hehe.

then 5plus and i have to leave
tuition~!

and bet i enjoyed my day!
just hoped that i could stay longer to miggle around with the rest
dip into water or something.
nvm.

these few days have been studying BIO.
BIO sucks!
tomato~ help~

white hair poking out

2010-06-11T00:07:00.004+08:00

just finished dinner-ing with vi's mum
thanks for the treat auntie :DDD
definitely enjoyed myself tday
but heh. my stomach grumbling now.

i guess everybody been noticing my white hair
think im too stressed alrd.
hehehhehe.

HPC always ended up to NUA at the end of the day
and become a roadblock
like we will be talk talk halfway,
den jam up whole place
so we ended up at the carpark rooftop

ah manz.
it was great.
taking photos
talking chatting
HPC :DDD

sometimes when it comes to a point that we will tink
wat will happen
will we drift to a state that we became strangers
i hope not.
10years down the road
i hope not.
and i believe we wont :DDD

4years gan qing
not that easy say BYE BYE de ok.
lol.

HPC :DDD

btw HPC blog is opened to public alrd
and well. i hope i wont get bashed
and i've been actively promoting
HPC video
i think shihui and dajie are famoussss alrd!
kekekeke

tuesday went to pulau ubin with gao and gang

ah manz.
felt GREAT :D

its like
a way to relax
after the trip somehow
it opened part of my partially asleep brain
i think that im sure of
what to do alrd
thanks gao and gang for tat day!

despite the many mosquito bites
and muscle aches
and muddy dirty patches
:DDDD
PS: ah jing new song so nice! :D

crazy peopo

2010-06-03T21:39:00.002+08:00

i think that im living in a house of crazy peopo.
ultimately, i will b driven crazy one day.

i think that today studying at the nlb is good.

i think that today sucks!

into the mood

2010-06-02T23:08:00.003+08:00

Been some time since i've blogged.
decided to do double blogging to make it more compact.

June holidays now!
unfortunately.
it's time to K the books.
Given my such lousy results.
if dun study even harder.
kong pa dui bu qi de bu zhi shi zi ji.
sigh.

whatever it is i know i have the
adam couple for FIGHTING! :D
and ah jing where she always PING LE! :D

ah manz.
cant wait for ah jing's album on 9th july.
wo you de mang le ^^

end of the chapters

2010-06-02T21:20:00.008+08:00

Wow, took me some time to finally decide to blog today.
List of event!
Start with POP 2010 bah(:

Probably the most relax camp of all
as we know that its the next batch shows now.
no more ours.
took the time to talk and spent more time with the VIs instead.

This pic is cute manz.
vivian was trying to push me away.
heehee.

It was the usual camp programme list.
Except that since it was our last camp
we did outdoor cooking for our dinner.
which was fun of coz.
and at night.
we were lazing on the parade square
and i was trying to complete the cards for the cadets.

eventually.
slept at the parade square too.
with vivian's real indepth conversation
and madm yilin and madm xinyu's companion
anyw that was 5am plus when we slept.

i guess it was an unforgettable night
coz even before that
dajie kewei and shihui was sleeping there.
dajie was even sleeping while eating the fries
alvin sir ordered
(yes. its fattening...!!)

i would say
the memories were shared under the moon.

the Parade started real early.
at first i was really worried.
no til the end. i was stiill worried
worried there's no guests. worried for there's no last rehearsals.

eventually peopo came in
thankfully.
and seriously
mendi cried.
even before the parade started.

the parade.
OWN-ed by dajie's speech.
how could she!
nv tell me anything beforehand!
touched of course.
held in my tears of course.
(dun wan like mendi. so ugly in parade. haha)

den it ended.
there's small cock ups here and there.
but thats just imperfection thats barely significant
the berert throwing part was funniest.
coz we hesitated when we threw our beret.
actually its the hair net's fault
and our beret didnt really fly up high -.-

and THANKYOU to those who came for our POP
much appreciated :DDD

farewell party ended.
unexpectedly. i didnt thot it would be such a wet one.
all the endless streams of tears.

ah. i tink the cadets all zhuan dao.
i heard the rest spent quite a sum on the gifts.
haha.

OHYA, CANT BELIEVE MY POP CAMP NO ECLAIR.
I DAMN JIE YI OK.

Next is investiture 2010

one year of EXCO life ended.
it was filled with grumbles, laughters, meetings, events
and eventually planings.

KOK HUA JIAN! lol, infamous bruce lee?

thru council. i've learned and experienced alot.
its not sth that can be copied nor anything.
the friends i made thru council.
all the little things done tgt.
fireworks festival, paintings of HOM walls. ushering duties.
they're sure the things to be remembered(:

Junhao! Kpop fan. haha.
we're doing the abracadabra pose.
haha!

alyssa and carol yo!
best of buddies for crapping :D

HANIS!
forever smiling/laughing at me while i walk past.
she's a funny chap. haha.

did i mention?
scary part and funnest part abt investiture
was the dance part.
OMG. i was really nervous okay.
im not actually a good dancer but im infront!
first row leh.
scaryyyy or wat ;x
with syazwan as partner.
we danced some couple dance too
ah manz.
we no chemistry one.
haha.

i tou tou miao-ed
and saw yilin they all smiling and laughing, pointing
like nobody's business. LOL.

thank them for being cameraman too!
and yunrou's video made me infamous manz.
the unglam picsss.
OHMYTIAN.
but hai hao la actually.lol.
coz i think kareen and edward more famous than me!

surprising visitor from RI.
jonathan loh! top PSLE scorer for our pri sch for my year.
kiampa!
coz he always snatch away my first in class.
im always second coz of him!

he's like pi zhe nian qing ren pi de lao ren.
but well
kor told me he's just too mature for his age?
mayb?
i bet his results still damn zai manz! haha.
just a nice surprise to be able to see him again
since its been so longggg!

as usual.
aft investiture, is crazy taking pics time
all kinds of pose sia. haha.

well. dno why i only koop drinks on that day
i didnt take anything from teh buffet except teh drinks-.-

after investiture,
we went to eat steamboat.
really fully filled that night!

i guess time really flies.
i was so much in commitment with red cross and council
at the same time trying to balance between studies.
i didnt say i EXCELED in any of those
coz i didnt?
esp my studies.
i guess it was easy to say but hard to be done.
it felt like joining red cross and council was just yesterday
i remb how i learned the drills
and how i was gleefully taking pics of my new tie and tiepin.

there's so many many peopo to thank
so many friendship i made.
so many moments.

in a blink.
it has come to an end.
and its time for me to mug.
its fast, isnt it?

Mendi's birthday celebration.
at KBOX!
finally bring my HPC jian jian shi mian. haha.

before that we went to watch guide's ROD
haha, reminded me of how we secretly watched NPCC parade.
haha.

dined at new york new york and homed
mendi is a blessed and happiest birthday girl :D
that day

Last of all.
yesterday's Limelight band concert.
i just think that i wear til v shuaiz qi.
first time wear si shuaiz qi also.
shy*

before that.
we went to jacq house as visit
as a make-up for chinese new year that time
her mum cooked a spread .
from pasta to meatballs
i didnt dare take the meatballs.
coz got cheese. haha.
and i was a bit pai seh actually
for i dno why also. LOL.
had fun tho.
taking pics time was fun too.
hhaa.

DPLUS <3

RORO said jane they all came!
and didnt manage see 4/3 they all.
with jackie wearing dress siol.
OMG. haha.
teoh yilin was dere too!
also never see her.

and when reached home
totak knock out manz!

心情写照

2010-05-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

说实在的
阿京没入围金曲奖
真的很可惜

我觉得很心疼
尤其当阿京在部落格里道歉
其实我知道
不是你的错
在我眼里
你已经是所有的第一了！

看了新闻阿京歌迷‘示威’
有些许的不高兴
因为我不喜欢
让阿京难做
尤其是歌迷的举动
对于阿京的影响是很大的

可能心情有些许像阿京吧
成绩比想象中的烂很多
3科不及格
有什么好说的呢？
剩下明天的地理

其实心里很不高兴
尽管大家那么努力地想让我开心点
你们真的很可爱
因为这不是我要的

心情低落到谷底
想找个洞
钻进去
然后
什么都不想管
什么都不想说
什么都不知道

我需要
‘勇气’来继续下去